Cheers guysI'm going thru some rough times n I've come to realise most of my web presence isn't helping, so I've been testing a few sites I've got profiles on with simple but slightly antagonising questions/statements like the above just to see if they are places I feel I could comfortably be me without getting upset, n if not, move along.
Just needs doing really, me heads continuously reducing now I've nowt much left to control it with n with it my ability to understand ppl n why they get so angry n threatening all the time over nothing, seems like nobody talks about stuff anymore, folks shouting n screaming instead of discussing, being nasty for man-points, seems to be becoming the norm everywhere, n I can't handle people like that, it just hurts me head trying to interact,
I doubt anyone will read this but it's here if anyone wonders why I deleted me profile, or I'm trying to if I can understand how it ain't like a button you press on ere is it, have to ask nicely n hope for the best apparently, but I just can't handle the Internet generally anymore, nor just people for that matter, I dunno how, I can't find any means to connect comfortably anymore, there's no compromise I like, n I'm reducing inside to the point that soon I'll be far too simple n vulnerable to manage to deal with even light banter or jokes at my own expense, or indeed, understand any at all, pretty soon, might not even be able to form full sentences I reckon, depends where my natural mental cycle is at once I'm all out of anything to stop the approaching mental fog, the timers on n I haven't much of it left, nowt but beer/stupidjuice to manage me moods, n I'm all confidence n no ability on that, so best just settle in.
I read cheezburger daily n I'm skipping more 'jokes' than I'm getting now. Watched one of my fave Doctor Who eps but couldn't understand it even with the helping lady voice turned on. So I know I'm going. Moments of clarity now n then, like now, but not much, n I'm getting tired trying to mentally run up the down escalator.
Tra guys, have fun, keep laughing, I'm just gonna try n keep me head down n hope the world settles down a bit at some point, or summat else appears i can use to help raise me up out of the fog temporarily now n then so i can have a few days out the house, but anything that works also slightly kills me, so yay for options! :s
If i get really depressed i can always run into a straight club with a bomb strapped on, it's their fault there's so many homos about you know ;)
In case of Big Brother please ignore my previous sentence.
Bye.
(Just needs doing really, me heads continuously reducing now I've nowt much left to control it with n with it my ability to understand ppl n why they get so angry n threatening all the time over nothing, seems like nobody talks about stuff anymore, folks shouting n screaming instead of discussing, being nasty for man-points, seems to be becoming the norm everywhere, n I can't handle people like that, it just hurts me head trying to interact,
I doubt anyone will read this but it's here if anyone wonders why I deleted me profile, or I'm trying to if I can understand how it ain't like a button you press on ere is it, have to ask nicely n hope for the best apparently, but I just can't handle the Internet generally anymore, nor just people for that matter, I dunno how, I can't find any means to connect comfortably anymore, there's no compromise I like, n I'm reducing inside to the point that soon I'll be far too simple n vulnerable to manage to deal with even light banter or jokes at my own expense, or indeed, understand any at all, pretty soon, might not even be able to form full sentences I reckon, depends where my natural mental cycle is at once I'm all out of anything to stop the approaching mental fog, the timers on n I haven't much of it left, nowt but beer/stupidjuice to manage me moods, n I'm all confidence n no ability on that, so best just settle in.
I read cheezburger daily n I'm skipping more 'jokes' than I'm getting now. Watched one of my fave Doctor Who eps but couldn't understand it even with the helping lady voice turned on. So I know I'm going. Moments of clarity now n then, like now, but not much, n I'm getting tired trying to mentally run up the down escalator.
Tra guys, have fun, keep laughing, I'm just gonna try n keep me head down n hope the world settles down a bit at some point, or summat else appears i can use to help raise me up out of the fog temporarily now n then so i can have a few days out the house, but anything that works also slightly kills me, so yay for options! :s
If i get really depressed i can always run into a straight club with a bomb strapped on, it's their fault there's so many homos about you know ;)
In case of Big Brother please ignore my previous sentence.
Bye.
..wil,
Wed 15 Jun 2016, 9:53,
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