Drinking spirits before work would be the clincher for me that things are getting out of hand, well I think it would, who knows.
did you realise at the time or did it take longer?
( Ring Of Fire A petty, drooling belming butthurt retard., Tue 3 May 2011, 18:07, 1 reply)

Both, oddly
I mean, I knew it wasn't right, I'm not stupid, despite the evidence to the contrary. But also, I kept convincing myself it was OK, would get me past my hangover and then I'd stop, you know?

Then, one day, instead of telling myself I'd stop but never doing it, a friend I'd been talking to the night before while off my head took action for me, and from her home in NYC looked up AA meetings in my area and sent me a text the next day, at 10.30AM, half an hour before the meeting, telling me where it was and saying 'get to where you need to be' and I did.

And I've fucked up since then, but not for the aforementioned one year and 79 days now.
( scarpe We Stole Bikes, Tue 3 May 2011, 20:14, closed)