i'm about to ruin your breakfasts with this rubbish :(


shelf stacking IS important.. i can only apologise for the lack of horse. or panda.
(Mon 18th Feb 2013, 8:15, More)

» Getting Old

its all relative...
i'm in my early 40s, (and at the time of writing) nagged by minor gripes like creaky knees and increasingly persistent tinnitus.. all lovingly cultivated through decades of physical abuse, noise, and reckless, carefree abandon :) but mostly, i feel blessed by the good stuff that comes with this age.. fair to say these days i'm happy with where my garden is at..

except that, my oldest uncle passed away unexpectedly last month, complications from prostate cancer. he was roughly three years into his diagnosis, and didn't quite make his 80th birthday. his ultimate decline was shocking regardless, which went from clear to routine scan to renal failure to pathway in the space of a couple of months. he was on the pathway for 5 days before he died.

good breeding and the miracles of modern technology have allowed my parent's generation to reach their late 60s and 70s intact and in reasonable health, and i'd never looked at them as being 'old', until now.. at his wake, looking round at my family and all those familiar faces gathered, i was completely overwhelmed, not only by his death, but by the enormity of (my generation's) impending loss, dumbstruck by how small and fragile most of them are looking now.. grief stricken, they seem to have crumpled overnight :(

huge sadness..
(Sat 9th Jun 2012, 1:54, More)