I'm disappointed in myself
Not for many of the reasons that people have already put forward.

I'm not disappointed with how my life has turned out so far - I've had plenty of ups and downs. I very much believe that without the crappy bits of life we wouldn't appreciate the great bits. To my mind life is a bit like a fairground ride - if the rollercoaster just went along a flat path - even if it was up high - it would just like being on any old train journey. However, if it's going up and down and scaring the bejeezus out of you then you have a great time.

The good bits and the bad bits are needed so we feel alive and not just ... meh.




So that's not what I'm disappointed about.

I'm not disappointed that I haven't done all the things I set out to do with my life. Mainly because I've never had much of a long-term idea of what I wanted to achieve. I'm much more a person who just makes it all up as I go along.

So what really disappoints me about myself?


Well, as a child my parents never placed much (if any) emphasis upon being good looking, slim, or any of those sorts of things. I don't remember ever being told, "Chickenlady, you look so pretty!" by my parents.

This isn't a complaint about my parents, by the way. I'm just pointing out that I was brought up to place greater emphasis upon how a person behaved rather than how they looked.

I've always maintained that looks fade and even with cosmetic surgery and pull in, pull up, skinny knickers and the like, we still can't change the packaging we come in to a greater degree.

So why, oh why am I obsessed with my Hot or Not rating?


Chickenlady, you disappoint me.



http://scoreboards.hotornot.com/b3tards?page=21 Currently
( chickenlady b3ta's very own Elizabeth Taylor, Wed 2 Jul 2008, 21:02, 62 replies)

I have no idea.
You look just fine from up here at the top.

*runs like hell*
( The Resident Loon Not a demographic. Do not measure., Wed 2 Jul 2008, 21:09, closed)

Oh Ta.
*cries into bucket*


*eats cake*


*cheers up*
( chickenlady b3ta's very own Elizabeth Taylor, Wed 2 Jul 2008, 21:12, closed)

I refuse to go on there.
I'm taking the moral high ground and I'm scared of the results.
( girlinthehole, Wed 2 Jul 2008, 21:12, closed)

BGB
I admire your moral stand and I wish I'd had the strength of character to refuse to take part in all those shenanigans.

I had entirely forgotten about it until someone mentioned it the other day and that was it....bloody curiosity got the better of me.

Gah!
( chickenlady b3ta's very own Elizabeth Taylor, Wed 2 Jul 2008, 21:14, closed)

Erm!
I may be overplaying the moral high-ground a bit and perhaps just underplaying the fear of being last.
( girlinthehole, Wed 2 Jul 2008, 21:19, closed)

But the ridiculous thing is
that it's not about how attractive/good looking/beautiful you may be..that's wildly evident from the scores not just of fellow b3tans but throughout the site. People give scores on really strange criteria - all the blatantly sexy photos get a 10 - regardless of the age of the person in the picture or how attractive they may be.

See, this is why I'm so disappointed in myself - it's not about how good looking anyone may be...I'm not sure what it's about, but I like to compete!

I'm like this with sport too - I've unfortunately got Alpha female drives to win at everything.
I used to play netball - this was only about three or four years ago. I thought to myself, Yes! I can do this! I was crap at school, but that was just because...erm...lack of confidence.

So I went and played...and I have all the drive and desire to win - I *always* play to win.

Sadly my desires are not matched by my abilities.

I can't catch.

I can't throw.

All I have is a determination to win....

Not really very helpful when you fall over people and get yourself in the way. Constantly.

So yes, Alpha female determination not matched by a B3ta female spakhandedness.

:D
( chickenlady b3ta's very own Elizabeth Taylor, Wed 2 Jul 2008, 21:28, closed)

after peeking...
chickenlady, you look so pretty to me :)
(Insidian, Wed 2 Jul 2008, 21:33, closed)

I wish I was a lot more competative.
I might have got somewhere in life.

Unfortunately, I'm so laid back I'm horizontal :)
( girlinthehole, Wed 2 Jul 2008, 21:34, closed)

@ Insidian
Aaww! Thank you!

@ BGB

The competitiveness hasn't got me anywhere at all yet.

It's no good being competitive if you suffer from procrastination (also known as bone-idle-itis) and the occasional lack of ability - like the netball.
( chickenlady b3ta's very own Elizabeth Taylor, Wed 2 Jul 2008, 21:38, closed)

Well you still place higher than me
scoreboards.hotornot.com/b3tards?page=22
and with less votes too
( fuck shit up the best you never had, Wed 2 Jul 2008, 21:38, closed)

@ Becky
And that's why I think it's all wrong, wrong, wrong, wrong!
( chickenlady b3ta's very own Elizabeth Taylor, Wed 2 Jul 2008, 21:43, closed)

Hey!
Harrisp now outranks me!

Good- I was a bit embarrassed at being at the top, to be honest...
( The Resident Loon Not a demographic. Do not measure., Wed 2 Jul 2008, 21:43, closed)

Is this 'home' tonight?
I narrowly avoided an ambush by Kaol earlier on another thread, so it's possibly safer here.
( K2k6 has a proper job these days, Wed 2 Jul 2008, 21:48, closed)

So you think.

( The Resident Loon Not a demographic. Do not measure., Wed 2 Jul 2008, 21:52, closed)

And another thing!
If they're just a lurker should they even be allowed onto the b3ta page?!

*Burns Daily Mail*


Ggrrrrr!!

I've been angry all day today...no idea why.

I even shouted at some poor shop assistant this morning...I'd taken my parents into town and my dad wanted to go down into the basement of a shop, we couldn't find the lift (he's in a wheelchair ever since his stroke), so my mother went to ask how we could get down there. The shop assistant, not seeing dad and I pointed her in the direction of the stairs. I shouted out, "Wheelchairs aren't very good with stairs you know!"
Which I'm sure she did know...but she clearly didn't know that dad and I were with my mother. So she didn't deserve me shouting in my best hoity-toity voice.
( chickenlady b3ta's very own Elizabeth Taylor, Wed 2 Jul 2008, 21:54, closed)

Hi again.
People will arrive I'm sure. I'm off to bed in a mo : )
( girlinthehole, Wed 2 Jul 2008, 22:00, closed)

Evening
Miss spoon licker. How goes it?

@BGB - Bedtime already? That's even earlier than me!
( K2k6 has a proper job these days, Wed 2 Jul 2008, 22:01, closed)

I'm off too now
I want to have a bit of chocolate and watch some Lost then go to sleep.

It's a thrilling life I lead you know.

The Lost and chocolate combined will no doubt ensure I have weird and wonderful dreams.

And tomorrow I have the joys of my tax return to fill in and .... horror of horrors, I have an article to write....so expect me on here all day.
( chickenlady b3ta's very own Elizabeth Taylor, Wed 2 Jul 2008, 22:02, closed)

Evenin'
Is this where we are?

Still not comfortable with the offtopic QOTW thingy?
( mistaspakkaman and the inedible shifting caterpillars, Wed 2 Jul 2008, 22:06, closed)

You're pretty
and you've a filthy streak a mile wide. :D

I still have no idea why I'm rated what I am on there...Check my profile to see!
( Mr.Ons knows you can hear him, Earthmen., Wed 2 Jul 2008, 22:07, closed)

@ancrenne
Yes, quite good thanks. I've had lots of fun with people trying to guess the subject of my dream last night. You were the only one who got it right first time.

Al guessed. But only on his 8th attempt!
( K2k6 has a proper job these days, Wed 2 Jul 2008, 22:07, closed)

.
@ancrenne: It's become hot and sticky here so taking off a tight Spiderman suit has proven to be tricky.

@K2k6: What was your dream about?
( mistaspakkaman and the inedible shifting caterpillars, Wed 2 Jul 2008, 22:10, closed)

Evenin' all!
*taps cap*

We all ok? Aside from being BEAUTIFUL. I'm not joking either, hotornot is stupid and they let any old idiot vote on your pic.

And being as the usual 'about me' is:

"wl i lik goin out clubin n i like sex its well gud n me n my m8s fink im hot so your guna vote"

I wouldn't worry about it too much!

*sees beauty in everyone*
( Devil_In_Tights the *real* DiT!, Wed 2 Jul 2008, 22:11, closed)

@Spakka
Evening, sir.

It wasn't really about very much, just that I dreamt I met up with a female b3tard and had a nice time with her.

The fun was in guessing who she was. I had numerous gazzes this afternoon, and some of the guesses were quite interesting. Some were also ridiculous!
( K2k6 has a proper job these days, Wed 2 Jul 2008, 22:13, closed)

Evenin' DIT
Hot or not: Meh!
( mistaspakkaman and the inedible shifting caterpillars, Wed 2 Jul 2008, 22:13, closed)

@K2k6
Funnily enough, you actually made an appearance in one of my dreams. I can't remember what you did, but you were there.
( mistaspakkaman and the inedible shifting caterpillars, Wed 2 Jul 2008, 22:15, closed)

evening lovely people :D
Just looking on the hot or not thingamajig and found someone I went to school with. Tis a small world on teh interwebs.
( wanderlust, Wed 2 Jul 2008, 22:17, closed)

Well I'm so dim
I can't even work out how to get myself on the b3tards scoreboard.
( Mrs Entity is in hiding., Wed 2 Jul 2008, 22:18, closed)

@spakka
I'd like to think I was either playing music or dressed in a white coat doing sciencey stuff. But knowing the way dreams work, I was probably feeding buttercups to a yak or something.
( K2k6 has a proper job these days, Wed 2 Jul 2008, 22:18, closed)

*determined to dream of feeding buttercups to yaks*
*scoffs cheese*
( Devil_In_Tights the *real* DiT!, Wed 2 Jul 2008, 22:20, closed)

*kisses ancrenne*
can I have a go on your cider please lovely?
( wanderlust, Wed 2 Jul 2008, 22:20, closed)

Evenin' wanderlust
@K2k6: I honestly can't remember. There's a small chance you may have been playing music. Don't remember the details.

The great thing about having a profile pic is that you get to appear in other people's dreams.
( mistaspakkaman and the inedible shifting caterpillars, Wed 2 Jul 2008, 22:22, closed)

*yawns*
Nearing that time of night again.

I'll probably not dream of any of you tonight but who knows, now we have b3taDreamNet(TM).
( K2k6 has a proper job these days, Wed 2 Jul 2008, 22:26, closed)

Now that Rob has kindly given us a place for our offtopic wibbling
Shall we mosey over to the new thread that beckyjsbx started?

EDIT: G'night K2k6. Don't forget to check our profile pics.
( mistaspakkaman and the inedible shifting caterpillars, Wed 2 Jul 2008, 22:27, closed)

that would be lovely.
With ice if you have any please.
All we need now is a beer garden.
*waves to spakka* 'ello!
( wanderlust, Wed 2 Jul 2008, 22:28, closed)

Is there any way
that we can use the power of the interweb to connect to a huge neural network, enabling us to do live B3taDreamTalk?

Of course, this may be how the Matrix starts...

*jumps in slo-mo*
( Devil_In_Tights the *real* DiT!, Wed 2 Jul 2008, 22:29, closed)

@Ancrenne
Hello! Your sig intrigues me...I either have very mundane dreams, incredibly sexual ones, or just terrifying visions of hell. I can't figure them out at all...

Nice to meet you!

_{Was it my 'HorN' photo that made you say hello? ;p}
( Mr.Ons knows you can hear him, Earthmen., Wed 2 Jul 2008, 22:30, closed)

live B3taDreamTalk
would be great coz then we can actually bring our surreal and bizarre fantasies to life. Plus it would count as time spent on b3ta so we can be productive during the day.
( mistaspakkaman and the inedible shifting caterpillars, Wed 2 Jul 2008, 22:31, closed)

^
*Gets to work on the science...*
( Devil_In_Tights the *real* DiT!, Wed 2 Jul 2008, 22:34, closed)

@ancrenne
Hopefully, we won't share our entire headspace - we'd just bring to life our shared Hyper-Reality we created using our combined weird immaginations.
( mistaspakkaman and the inedible shifting caterpillars, Wed 2 Jul 2008, 22:38, closed)

No!
No mind reading involved! You share what you want... As long as it's flluffeh! :)
( Devil_In_Tights the *real* DiT!, Wed 2 Jul 2008, 22:48, closed)

.
We're in here now.
( mistaspakkaman and the inedible shifting caterpillars, Wed 2 Jul 2008, 22:58, closed)

Stay out of my head
You fuckers.
I don't think most of you cope with my mind.
I wish I was joking.
( Cawl, Wed 2 Jul 2008, 23:02, closed)

.
* herds Kaol into the other thread *
( mistaspakkaman and the inedible shifting caterpillars, Wed 2 Jul 2008, 23:05, closed)

I'm already there.
I can be in two places.
( Cawl, Wed 2 Jul 2008, 23:06, closed)

^ ^
Of course you can oh beelord with the uncopable mind.
( mistaspakkaman and the inedible shifting caterpillars, Wed 2 Jul 2008, 23:08, closed)

If only you knew
About my mind...
*frowns sadly*
( Cawl, Wed 2 Jul 2008, 23:10, closed)

You coped with that before,
Didn't you?
( Cawl, Wed 2 Jul 2008, 23:20, closed)

Yes, it does...
*slaps self on forehead*
( Cawl, Wed 2 Jul 2008, 23:29, closed)

Well...
How the buggerage do you join this scoreboard?
(chili_kitten Cheese, peas and honey bees, Thu 3 Jul 2008, 9:48, closed)