40? A mere infant....
I'm now 50, its only just starting to come right for me.

Like you I was a clever child in 'junior' school, passed my 11+, and went to the best school in Warrington where I promptly realised that I wasn't as clever as the others so why bother? (It wasn't helped by me discovering my sexuality and it not being one that most people would accept at the time.)
I still managed a few o'levels (ooohhh missus)and stayed on for A'levels which I screwed up by thinking one was in the afternoon when it had been in the morning.
That blew my plans of teacher training college.
I ended up in a succession of dead end jobs, eventually went to college as a mature student and prompltly settled into my old ways.

Cutting a long story short, I had a couple of long term relationships, one of which I mistook lust for love, and the other we were far better at being friends than lovers.
This last 8 yrs, I've had both my parents die within 6 weeks of each other, I've met the woman I want to spend the rest of my life with, and I've just got the job I've wanted for the last three years.

So hold on mate, things will turn around when you least expect them.
(paof2 Nude might not be rude, but rude could be nude..., Fri 27 Jun 2008, 11:27, Reply)