Black dog beckons...
When I first met my ex girlfriend I could be certain of both birthday and Xmas cards from her for the first few years, then we went off at tangents, both found new partners, but kept in touch.
After 15 years we got together as lovers rather than friends, she became the mother of my children, and we split up...
Not drastically bad, we lived around the corner from each other, I saw the kids every day until my mother died and I had to move home to look after my dad, giving up the house I was renting.
Six weeks later he died.
My daughters are 10 soon.
I've never had a birthday card from them, or fathers day card, and the only Xmas cards I've ever had have been ones she's written in a rush whilst I've been delivering presents.
Yet, every year I get excited just before each event, and every year I get disappointed.
They were on MSN almost constantly when they first got a pc, I chatted to all my girls (they have a 12 yr old sister that I consider mine) but I've not seen them online for months. Emails and letters go unanswered, the phones constantly on answerphone with no response to messages left there.
I know I have a good life now, my wife loves me very very much, and I love her, but a simple message for 'daddy' would mean so much.
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