I am such a twat
I am ashamed.

My best friend lived next door to me but was a little bit older than me. He sometimes teased me a little bit because of my naivety but never too much I suppose. I was nine or ten years old and he was in secondary school.

Once when we were building a tree house, he lost hold of a plank of wood and it almost hit me. I shouted at him and told him that I wasn't surprised that his original parents had put him up for adoption (he lived with his adopted parents).

I was totally surprised at this and immediately wanted to unsay it but the damage was done. He looked devastated and then went home. I hadn't realised that there had been this bile building up inside me. Maybe I was jealous of him as well for being older and cooler.

I never really saw him again much after that as he went to a different school and the only time I would see him would be outside school. I bit the bullet and went to call for him a couple of times but his mother always answered the door and told me he was busy doing his homework.

I have often thought what I would say to him.

I would probably just say

"Sorry, Phil. I was and still am an idiot. You were a good friend and I never meant to say what I did."
(powervator and NONE SHALL PASS, Sat 13 Dec 2008, 17:36, 1 reply)

damn
i say that all the time =/ tell him to harden up instead
(pancakes_n_ham, Sat 13 Dec 2008, 19:46, closed)