Mum,
Thanks for having me, for bringing me into this world and for being the best parent you were capable of. I know that I told you many times that I wish I was not born or that I wished I could die, but I found peace and I found that inner happiness in the end. I just wish that you could too. It saddens me that you are so damaged and in turn we did more damage to each other, it saddens me that we never really communicated, that I spent so long caring for you, I never told you what was wrong with me. I wish that I could have made things better for you, but you had to do that for yourself. I am finding out now how hard parenthood is and I can't imagine how much harder it would be if I was as damaged as you.
I love you.
( Rev. Jayneflakes Buy my book, I need the cash for drugs and hookers, Thu 4 Mar 2010, 23:10, Reply)