I went through similar times
I was so relived when the bullies left - they were a year above me and there was a group of them. My four years of hell were over. I almost skipped into school the following september and life was great. For about a month. Then on one October morn, a little runt that had come into the school in the new first year, fresh in new trousers that he would grow into, and with a cocky grin that meant he had friends and relations to protect him, announced that I was 'dead' and that I was to fight him after school. This sent chills down my spine. He wasn't much, just a few kilos of puppy fat and an attitude he'd picked up from his....brother, older by about 5 years....I wasn't prepared to go through more so I went to the teachers and complained - as ever, to no avail. A few days later he came past me again, running into the changing rooms in front of me, a few seconds later returning with a plastic cup full of water which he threw over me, to antagonise me into starting a fight that would legitimise his brother's suspended aggression against me. I felt rage. I was 16 now, and it was time for it to stop. I was doing very well in CDT (craft, design, technology as it was more thoroughly known) and was part way through constructing my final project (an X-Y plotter based on a Lego version I had made the year before and programmed by a BBC Micro - I know some of you would appreciate the effort I put in there) and so would regularly have things in my pockets....this time it was a screwdriver. I grabbed that tool out of my pocket even before I knew what I was doing and planted it firmly into the top of his head. It didn't go in very far - something made me stop - but it stuck there, a few millimetres into his scalp. We paused, we were shocked....and then he cried like a bitch. I mean proper squealing. I thought that was it, the end of school, bullying, him...but the CDT teacher walked calmly past, pulled the screwdriver out of the boys head and sent him on his way....the whole thing was covered up. I guess I've provided a complete opposite to the 'screwed over by the man' story and there was no intention to the (now obvious but still tenuous) screwdriver in the head being screwed over by the man pun.....maybe we should have been given a question about bullying.....goes for a lie down.... *takes tablets and tries to forget*
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