I've mentioned before
that I had a cousin who killed himself. I didn't really deal with it very well, and was a bit of a mess for some time afterwards. I couldn't come to terms with the fact he was gone or the way in which he went.

One night, though, I had a dream. It started off fairly normally, like most of the other nonsensical dreams I have..... I was in the pub with the missus and her sister, but we had to leave because she wanted to go to the pub (it made sense in the dream) so we were walking from the pub to.... well, the same pub when I nipped in to my parents house for some reason. The phone was ringing so I answered it.

It was my sister in law, who I had just left outside (it was an odd dream). But then, everything became very vivid. She said "Do you know who this is?" I said yes, but she replied "No, you don't. It's me." I was fairly confused, even in dream terms, but the voice continued "I know you've been worrying about me. I wanted to let you know I'm OK. Stop worrying. I'm fine."

Then I woke up. For the first time in several months, I felt like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders, but at that point I didn't know why. I remembered the dream a few hours later.

I know, I'm being daft, but I like to think it was him letting me know he was OK. Why it was my sister in law's voice though, I dunno.
( baw__bag contains traces of nuts on, Mon 7 Jul 2008, 1:09, Reply)