that reminds me of a bad one...
We had a stand in teacher for one whole year before our GCSE's - for geography. He genuinely had fallen off a chair rocked backwards and damaged his spine so one arm and one leg were pretty much passengers on his journey through life.

He fell ill and had a couple of operations - so was off for a couple of months, and we got a proper temp teacher call Mr Shields. He was a proper areshole. Short tempered, didn't know any topics to be taught and so generally we played him up. As time wore on he got more and more miserable and kept taking it out on us - and us putting it back on him.

We made sure he knew he was a misery, and i think mutual hatred sprang up between our class and him.

Fast forward until half term in feb, and he didn't come back. We cheered. They then told us of his back cancer which ended his days. We fell silent. He had said nothing, but was probably in agony. I have never seen a group of 13-14yo kids astonished at what arses they had been to a miserable old coont. I still cringe now.

I don't know about anyone else, but i regularly have flashbacks to cringe moments from years ago. Like a wank bank but worse. I often get asked if i am ok by my mrs as i look deep in thought and conversation - yet say nothing externally. Odd that. It may be from 20 years back, but the feeling of dying a little inside is as fresh as ever.
( bazza van der trance , ooh baby baby, baby baby. Get up on this., Wed 3 Dec 2008, 15:21, 4 replies)

Me too
In fact, if struck by a particularly bad one I'll often swear loudly and out loud. Fine if I'm on my own, but a *little* odd if with company.
(Merrep, Wed 3 Dec 2008, 15:41, closed)

some are worse than others...
..they are often not too bad - minor things really - but which mortified me at the time. They still haunt me all the same but are just not worth sharing.

Nothing i can do but get over it really!
Someone told me it was common for a cancerian to feel like this. mmm.
( bazza van der trance , ooh baby baby, baby baby. Get up on this., Wed 3 Dec 2008, 15:56, closed)

guilt
Let it go matey. It was 20 years ago and you were part of a class of kids. All kids can be thoughtless and cruel it goes with the territory. If you had known about his complaint you wouldn't have done it so don't beat yourself up.
(andythepieman Is surfing the waves of indifference on, Wed 3 Dec 2008, 15:57, closed)

No, don't let it go. Remembering these kinds of things is what keeps you trying to be a better person now.

Just don't let it eat you up though.
(Musuko, Wed 3 Dec 2008, 17:04, closed)