Ah, the old human failing
that the grass is always greener on the other side.

I do have sympathy for you, but looking at this as a complete outsider, you lived less than a mile from each other, you hadn't any other people in your life at the time, you had every means of communication at your disposal and yet still in "real life" you drifted apart.

If you're not going to spend a long long time torturing yourself about this (and sadly, from personal experience, longing for "the one who got away" can last for many years) you have to coldly examine why, despite physical proximity, you drifted apart after only a few meetings.

Possibly because it was never "in real life" going to work. Fantasy life of course this seems different, but if your feelings in real life had been as strong as you say (and they had been reciprocated), you wouldn't have drifted apart, you would have become closer.

I'm not saying marriage is for life (although of course it should be, ideally) but you risk losing the reality you have now for a myth if you think about anything other than B that if it should have happened, it would have happened. Sorry, I'm sure that's not what you want to hear, and I'm not preaching here as much as trying to save you from spending years missing something that never was. Hope it all works out for you.
( I_Was_Mordred, Tue 2 Sep 2008, 0:25, Reply)