I know that self-diagnosis is crappy, and that's sort of what I want to talk to another therapist about getting done, but I think I might have some kind of mood disorder, or something like that.
I keep looking up stuff on schizoaffective disorder, and a lot of it matches what I'm thinking and feeling--at least at some bad intervals, like whenever I'm stressed out a lot at thecinema and people use mobile phones or as i like to call them "chirp boxes" they are boxes that chirp. like a tiny chirpy bird. in the cineme. oft times i have queried the validity of someone like me going somewhere where 'objects' like that dwell.
I call these moments "Dementor Attacks" (as in Harry Potter--like I could never be happy again).

But other times I'm feeling like that--I also call them "tempests", like the shakespeare play Twelth Night. like there's a storm in my head and the twins (my ego adn my id) will be separated

But there's also times when my mind is just racing, and brimming over with ideas, and I can't wait to jot them down in my notebook for further use. I think that's partially why I keep a Livejournal, to write all this down, and it's also why I think I'm so gifted creatively and with good speaking and writing skills.
(hot white cum, YEAH! i will show you 0wnage in a handful of posts, Sun 4 Jul 2010, 20:53, Reply)