It's shit but knowing you're on something helps to move you forward
I started on citalopram, felt a lot better (but didn't enjoy the side effects in the bedroom), moved to mirtazapine and slept 15 hours a day while putting on 2 stone in as many months.

Back on the citalopram now - I guess it's a case of finding one that works with your chemistry.

I found actually going on to an AD was a step in the right direction, you know you can't bottom-out again but it does leave you oddly numb, on 40-60mg now I can be very blank, starey and completely unemotional in very happy or sad situations. I've had the same SAD diagnosis and it made so much sense after listing the same things you're going though. Stick at it I guess and best of luck.
( moohalaa, Mon 20 Sep 2010, 11:02, 1 reply)

I know this one well.
I eventually worked up to maximum citalopram dosage, but in truth also found that the accompanying sexual stamina was a major chore. To put it in context: A 'quickie' is anything less than 45 minutes.

Also switched to mirtazapine. weight-gain, check. sleeping from 7pm to 9am, check. However I quickly re-discovered the joys of a 3-minute wank.
I found that the orodispersable version works faster at least in terms of drowsiness, so if you're like me and realise at 9 or 10pm you've forgotten to take the bugger, it doesn't wreck the next day quite as badly. At least I can get up so that I've got time for breakfast and lunch, even if they're only a few minutes apart. Rather than just making it awake in time for dinner. Even on a higher dose, I've found that I can function, and even have enough energy to walk for at least an hour every evening in an attempt to shift some weight.
(f_rev, Mon 20 Sep 2010, 12:21, closed)

I went from 20, 40, 60 for a few months on citalopram, at 40 I was just utterly blank and nonplussed about anything
moo, your nan has died! "Oh I see. How terrible."
moo, you've found twenty quid under your bed! (!!!) "Oh. Great. I am so happy."

A quickie was 'non existent' and self abuse was fruitless. I know what you mean about Mirtazapine though, I was at myself like a safari park chimp with the stamina of a brisk sneeze.

I think I'd take Mirtazapine late at night like I was told, and wake up the next afternoon still tired. Even if I set my alarm I'd snooze right through it,
wake up, eat two lasagnes and six packets of crisps and still be starving hungry. :/
( moohalaa, Mon 20 Sep 2010, 13:18, closed)