To The Mrs
This has to go to the Mrs for putting up with me.

I was in and out of foster care as a sprog and as such have what can best be described as "attachment issues".

I learnt at a young age that the only constant thing in my life at that time was me and as such pretty well did what I needed to do to get by on my own.

One ex wife and a shed load of failed relationships later I started to date the Mrs.

Well we'd been together a few years and were bumbling along as we do when out of the blue she informed me that I was about to be a dad.

Let's just say I was not best pleased, I was terrified.

How could "I" know how to bring up a kid, I'd had a shit time myself as a sprog, would history repeat itself?

There would be none of this "my world" any more I'd have responsibilities, somebody to have to "really" care for, look after.

How the fcuk would I do that?

How do you do that??????

It wasn't my place to tell her to get rid of it but she knew how I felt, dark silent moods, I didn't do the antenatal classes, I had the snip "before" the bairn was born to make sure there would be no more "mistakes", hell I was even at home in bed "when" the bairn was born.............

Really, really not nice..........

But when I first set eye's on my daughter my life changed.

So this is for the wife for putting up with me and living through nine months of hell because of me when they should have been some of the best days of her life.

This is for the wife for teaching me what patience and love and respect is, for allowing me to stay in her life and live in a family that's there.

This is for the wife who could see past the distant stares, who could see past the feigned indifference

This is to the Mrs for giving me a life that I never knew could be so good...... for giving me the best twelve years of my life so far.

Thanks.
(Dark Matter All The Wonders In The World & We Invent Boredom, Tue 7 Oct 2008, 18:03, 5 replies)

Good on you mate
for admitting your weaknesses, i'm sure you'll be a cool dad.

respect.
(mr-lizard Hell's teeth man!, Tue 7 Oct 2008, 18:24, closed)

Good of you to tell it
Just make sure that you also say this to your wife directly, and not just on an internet forum! :)
(EuroSong I love horse meat: best of all the animals, Wed 8 Oct 2008, 7:01, closed)

most of all
Make sure she knows that you regret it, and that you know that you'll never be able to recover that experience ever again (more so after the snip).
Your wife sounds like an angel. Buy her some flowers and let her know how great she is!
x
(The Apeface Cherub is not a cunty-uber-cunt, Wed 8 Oct 2008, 13:08, closed)

Yep I know.
Although I still have my moments it's getting better and easier. It's time we will never get back but I do my best when i can to show i care (there are flowers in our room 365 days per year, a small token I know but I reckon she appreciates it). Our daughter is nearly twelve now so here's hoping that it just keeps getting better....
(Dark Matter All The Wonders In The World & We Invent Boredom, Wed 8 Oct 2008, 15:33, closed)

I hear ya, brother!
Your tale is not dissimilar to mine, like an echo, in fact.

I absolutely understand what you mean, and offer you the firm handshake of one who has shared your doubts and now understands how things can, and should be.

More power to ya!
(EffinDoubt is breaking glass on, Thu 9 Oct 2008, 13:42, closed)