'It was the first time in years that someone had shown an interest in helping me. All my friends and family had lost hope years before.'
Are you sure? I think you're probably writing off a lot of people there who cared deeply, but didn't know what to do. Your own selfish needs wrecked their lives, and now you glibly dismiss them in an internet post.
( The Awful Puppy Bakery is still bored, Fri 15 Feb 2013, 14:55, 1 reply)

Yes I'm sure
I've spoken to them all since I sobered up. It was really rough on them and probably the hardest thing in the world was for them to let me go but it was the best thing they could have done. I had to lose everything, I had to lose all hope before I could even begin to recover. Standard advice for friends and family of hopeless alocholics of my type is to abandon them to their drink.

You are right about the selfishness. Spot on in fact. I now know that self-centredness was the root of my troubles and yes it was all my own making - heavy drinking was just a symptom of it. I started drinking as an ego-centric adolescent and all the while I drank excessively I never grew up. I believe the alcoholic of my type is an extreme example of self-will run riot. Above all I have to be rid of the selfishness and that is the basis of my daily recovery today. It's not a case of just staying away from a drink instead I have to look out for self pity and resentments and nip them in the bud. In short I have to grow up and make up for the arrested emotional development that I suffered throughout 23 years of non-stop drinking
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( buffet_the_appetite_slayer ٩(●̮̃•)۶ jacked in to the ICE on, Fri 15 Feb 2013, 16:06, closed)