Sorry for all the words. But, it’s hard to condense and explain.

This might be frowned upon as well but still, I always like to come back and share stuff now and then, have learned a lot over the yrs. from just returning here but, promise tho, it will be last time I’ll post anything work related, as I do get we’re not for everyone (however, if your mood changes about it) Part 2 is here: youtu.be/beZ4rG-NVnc.

Ironically, about 7 months ago, June 15th 2025, my son passed away, not knife crime related as such but more about the county lines aspect, which sits on the fringes of these issues however.

Reece faced immense challenges with a highly frequent and aggressive epileptic condition which eventually caused brain damage. Another effect of his epilepsy was acute mental health problems, with a further condition called 'Post Ictal Psychosis’.

A risk to himself and everybody around him when he was ill in this way, a big guy too, who could become combative during these seizures and MH episodes. Coupled with the fact he wanted to go out drinking/socialising with his friends (the effects of alcohol (and\or drugs) would block the effects of his meds thus, stop them working) thus aggravating situations further.

Neither perfect before but, he made a lot of his bad choices after the brain damage and, no expert but estimate, he probs had the mentality and emotional intellect of a 12 yr. old after that but, he was 28 yrs. old when he died however, before he got this illness (in 2015), he was just beginning to excel.

But, being genuinely so sick, they put him on the highest rate of disability (PIP) however, he never had pot to piss in because, local drug dealers/users/so called friends kept exploiting him plus, as parents we weren’t giving him money to kill himself anymore but, as his addiction worsened, oh boy, he did love to get exploited, until of course, the money and drugs ran out, then serious violence would erupt.

In 2018 we had to section him for the first of many times and, I thought those were my saddest memories ...

But on the 15th of June last yr. around 6am, Reece had a seizure and either /fell or had a psychotic episode and jumped from his third-floor apartment block. Suicide (in a lucid state) is also possible but we highly doubt that? Furthermore, he was in a fight about an hour before this all happened (some other loser has been arrested for pulling a makeshift weapon on Reece and is currently on bail for attempted GBH).

Anyway, these 2 short films about the Knife Angel are things made coming through the haze of all that horror above, together with Reece’s mum who found out about the Knife Angel project (and put me on to it), it was a welcome distraction for a month and it’s dedicated to the 3 police women took great care of us in our worst moments, thank you and, sorry for long explanation.