and was horrified.
I know you are 'under the hospital' but What you are doing is preparing your body for starvation mode if it's not there already.
The minute you start eating normally you are going to pile on weight like you've never seen before.
Controlling starvation is a lovely thing you have power you have control and it's not something that is easily given up.
Years down the line I still long for that feeling of control and I doubt it will ever leave me.
Starvation fucks up your mind and it's a long haul to get back your sanity.
Doctor or no doctor.
Sorry to sound so harsh but I really want to push my point.
Gaz me if you want.

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Mon 21 Jul 2008, 19:35,
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I know you are 'under the hospital' but What you are doing is preparing your body for starvation mode if it's not there already.
The minute you start eating normally you are going to pile on weight like you've never seen before.
Controlling starvation is a lovely thing you have power you have control and it's not something that is easily given up.
Years down the line I still long for that feeling of control and I doubt it will ever leave me.
Starvation fucks up your mind and it's a long haul to get back your sanity.
Doctor or no doctor.
Sorry to sound so harsh but I really want to push my point.
Gaz me if you want.

