Hrm
Well, first time I asked a girl out was pretty much total heartbreak to be honest. I was 15, so I think that excuses the listening to most of Siamese Dreams on repeat, drinking crap cider and crying to my mates for the about a month after it happened. Being 15 excuses a lot of things.

Anyway, I was at school, as most 15 year olds are. I asked her out, had been fancying her for months, we'd got to be mates blah blah blah and she said yes! I was unbeleivably happy. Told my best mate about it and she was amazingly happy for me. Anyway, turns out she'd gone up to this girl and congratulated her "oh, i'm so happy for you two!" and all that. Unfortunately, the girl in question had thought that I'd asked her out as a mate, and she told me, in front of everyone in my year (all of whom knew by now - it was a small school) about the mistake and how she didn't think of me in that way. Crushing humiliation and heartbreak in one lovely package, oh well, I was on top of the world for a few hours at least.

Anyway, I'm genuinely not being emo, or mopey or feeling sorry for myself but it is strange how these things in your childhood influence you. I've never asked a girl out since sober, and most of my relationships have been as a result of slowly drifting into a relationship via the usual means of drunken sex and wondering whether we should be a couple. Sometimes I wonder how much of a different person I'd be if I'd not asked her out, or she'd actualy fancied me?

Strange things relationships. Oh, and that reminds me, know that cheesy chatup line, "you must be tired because you've been running through my mind all day" is it just me or does that not realy make you sound like a scary masked rapist? It's the running part I think. As in the other person is running, kind of makes you wonder what from. Creepy.
(Fredz A graveyard of hopes, a dump of ambition, Sun 13 Dec 2009, 18:24, 1 reply)

God bless Randall Monroe

( Lampito rise with the moon, go to bed with the sun, Sun 13 Dec 2009, 19:46, closed)