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I’m feeling a bit weird at the moment. One of my best pals killed himself on Thursday, and I have spent the last four days crying, drinking, trying to figure some things out, though thankfully, all with friends. Good friends. kinnda a bit numb at the moment and coming in to work and reading this question of the week is getting a bit much. The last month or so have been horrible, I split up with my girlfriend of 3 years, and the first time I saw her again was at the weekend. I am trying to deal with the loss of some one whom meant so much, and trying to communicate with a person who once was so close, but now feels like a stranger. I don't know why I am writing a message on a computer to a bunch of folk I have never met, or am i ever likely to meet. It is not like I don’t have anyone to talk too. I have great friends, and a very close family, but for some reason I feel the need to tell a web site. None of you know me, but reading other stories from people who have been through so much can give you strength. i am down, but soon i will be up. There are many wonderful things to look forward too. i can only hope i find them.

thanks.


Ben, i miss you. i will never understand why you did it. Rest in Peace my friend.
(Jeeves, Mon 18 Apr 2005, 11:12, Reply)