Wow. I see now that this post was a big mistake, as I now feel 10 times worse than I did when I started.
Before, I was just attemting a 'connction'. Trying to reach out. But now, you guys have truly made me feel like a defective person. I didn't realize how am - a selfish weed who has no ambition and is not worth dating at all. This isn't sarcasm - I've heard this from enough responders that I am now coming to believe it.

my dad has a genuine samurai sword in his room. he got it from the algarve. when i was thirteen i felt like i do now. (dementors - at least my love of liturature has helped me name these moods) i took it out and just looked at it.

I never have wanted to commit suicide, I just felt as if life had no point and that if I died that day it would be fantastic. These periods can last anywhere from 1 day to a whole month. I can still laugh and carry on, but I just don't feel "happy." work and such usually falls by the wayside

I am generally unproductive at work. I sometimes have brief respites of this feeling randomly for no apparent reason.

Normally I play video games as a means of entertainment or watch movies. They generally have no effect on my mood during these episodes, however random fleeting moments of joy do happen. These fleeting moments don't just occur during my gaming, but sometimes when Im driving and listening to music or just at random points during the day. It feels like everything is going to be ok, then after a few minutes Im thrown back
(hot white cum, YEAH! i will show you 0wnage in a handful of posts, Sun 4 Jul 2010, 21:25, 2 replies)

go tell 4chan this.

( parttimedogfish is a Born-Again Reincarnationist, Wed 7 Jul 2010, 10:14, closed)

When you were thirteen?
So, what, like a year ago then?

Fuck off back to /b/
(Godwin's Lawyer is more evil than Hitler, Wed 7 Jul 2010, 22:11, closed)