9/11
Not sure if I should post this. Please read it all before flaming me.

This is prolly my #1 Horrific thing. At the time, whilst horrifying, I was more interested in the organization (I guessed Bin Laden was involved as soon as I heard about the attack) of it and the possible repercusions of the whole thing. It was a year later, on the anniversary I think it really hit me - for some reason I sort of "put myself" there, and could feel the fear, hopelessness, the sense of doomed inevitability of peoples impending deaths ( both in the towers and the planes) and just kept thinking "How would I have coped ? How would I have dealt with that sense of knowing what would happen". I now avoid pretty much anything to do with the whole business. I think it made me a kittle depressed and obsessed for a bit (maybe still does)

In fact for a few years after, despite being very "into" war, history, wargaming etc I kept away from anything historical and just played fantasy stuff - less "real" y'see ?

Of course it also raised some rather unpleasant prejudices/opinions in myself about certain religions (and organized religion in general) that whilst I despise myself for thinking, I still feel them. And I hate myself for it. And I know that 99% of these people are cool and just want to get on...but at the back of mind there is always part of me saying "yeah, but is that guy the 1%".

So not only was the event Horrific, th eway it fucked with my world view has been pretty big to me too. And I dont like the affect it has had on me.
(kitescreech still here, Sat 23 Jun 2007, 17:05, Reply)