Blimey O'Reilly
I had a very similar experience. SWMBI went through an uber-broody spell a few years back when it would have been im-frigging-possible to have had kids. And then a bit later we got married, and the subject came up again. And again. I think I was at the very least ambivalent to the concept, sort of going with the flow, but I never had the 'Wahey, gonna be a daddy' bit. Come the birth, again I felt like I was acting a part. The lack of sleep may have had something to do with it. I don't think I really 'bonded' with my son until he was a couple of months old.

The same with my daughter: a strange 'well, if you really want to' sensation right up until they've plopped out and a while after that.

I still look around at myself and think 'what the hell am I doing here, this is what grown-ups do' at times.

"Cleverly disguised as a responsible adult". Sheesh.
(osok Rebel without a clue, Tue 22 Apr 2008, 17:48, Reply)