CHCB
Without understanding the issues of bipolarity, which may or may not be inherited or a byproduct of one's upbringing, it's very difficult to comment.

However, regardless of your medical condition you're certainly giving it much more consideration than many people. That alone should be applauded.

edit - a good many highly creative and intelligent people I know are borderline barking. The lines blur sometimes.
(Bicycle Repairman "you're also a bit of a wanker", Wed 23 Apr 2008, 17:49, Reply)