Shit
My nan passed away tonight, at 6:30.
I've just taken my mum there, when I heard the news I didn;t feel liek I thought I would. I went out for a run and came back.

Mum was in bits so I took her to the home where Nan had spent her last few weeks and when I saw her it was liek I'd been punched.
The shock was incredible.

I've never seen a dead body before but Nan looked so peaceful in her bed, then my mum went and started speakign to her and I had no idea what to do so I jkust stood there and made sure she was ok.

I never was close to my nan and now I wish I'd been to see her more.

We were there for an hour and a half, my auntie and cousin came and they were hit much harder than my mum.

When we left mum thanksed me for being so solid and dependabel but it was because I had no idea what to do.

How can I have done a good thing without knowing how?

I'm glad nan died when she did. Her quality of life was fucked, she was being waited on and she was always independent and liked it that way.

I knwo the whole thing is going to turn into a family argument and I'm not looking forward to the whole affair.

I've been listening to jack Johnson's 'If I could' seems kind of fitting since 2 of my mates are now expecting kids...

Makes me think as well

I just needed to get that off my chest.

Sorry for lack of humour.

*Edit*

Had a weird experience last night, woke up wide awake about 4AM and nipped to the toilet, as I was walking back to my room I saw a shadow over mum and dads bed (they sleep with the door open), when I blinked it had gone...

I'm not massively religious but perhaps it was Nan?
(Fuckarma was masturbating into your handbag, Thu 4 Sep 2008, 23:31, 8 replies, latest was 16 years ago)

Mate
I've been there recently myself when my grandad died.

Just being there and doing what you can makes the world of difference, trust me.

Hope you're OK.
(scentless_apprentice takes two bottles into the shower!, Thu 4 Sep 2008, 23:36, Reply)

Jesus
Here, have a hug. Hope it helps.
(Pretty strangers and promises, Fri 5 Sep 2008, 0:15, Reply)

I never cried or got emotional when my grandparents died.
But I loved them and often think about them.

Just be there for your mum.
( girlinthehole, Fri 5 Sep 2008, 8:34, Reply)

You never know
how you're going to react until it happens, but there's no standard response. It's certainly not the case that you have to be wailing and crying to be grieving.

Sorry you're having to go through this. Just be there for your mum and give her a hug when she cries. And whatever your feelings and reactions at the funeral, roll with them. They're OK.
( thealternativefact, Fri 5 Sep 2008, 10:00, Reply)

^ all this
*hugs* Don't force any feelings but don't repress them when they do :) And as said above make sure your mum has lots of hugs, you may not think you are doing anything but hugs are awesome and help everything. And chocolate.
( TGB checking Off Topic is still shit at, Fri 5 Sep 2008, 10:06, Reply)

I"m so sorry about your Grandma.
I think you did a good think simply by being there for your mum, and for staying with her when she made her final goodbye.
(The Empress it seems you CAN polish a turd!, Fri 5 Sep 2008, 10:33, Reply)

yeah, be there for yer Ma
My Nana died a month ago. All of the same stuff. Not religious either but I read in the church. My brother's missus recently popped one out and we talked about how she would know her great-nan through all of our memories.
(bazmorningstar efil4nat3b, Fri 5 Sep 2008, 10:58, Reply)

Thanks
For the messages guys and also the gaz's I've received.

I'm just in work today, feeling slightly spaced out but also reading the QOTW stories, I'm glad it's a bloody good one this week as it;s keeping my spirits up!

So thanks for the stories as well I suppose
(Fuckarma was masturbating into your handbag, Fri 5 Sep 2008, 12:10, Reply)