Sat in the pub for my one pint tonight..
..and made it last 70 minutes byr eading an old favorite - some poncy 19thC French poetry.

Trying to take my mind off an old friend who intimates pretty heavily that he wants to take his life before his 30th tomorrow. He's in a bad state - doesn't really know himself anymore and is in extreme "psychosomatic" physical pain. We were best buddies at uni before I flipped out and now I can't afford to go and visit him. I don't think it would help anyway. Visited him a few times over recent years and he's totally lost. Trying not to be sad because I can't think of anything to do. His local NHS has totally failed him - one doctor told him to hang himself if he did committ suicide.

Nothing I can do unless I magically understand what's going on in his head, and I think there're about a billion bad things going on.

He'll probably be alive by the end of the week. I'll call him tomorrow to wish happy birthday anyway.
(raymond "three griddle pans" luxury yacht lovin' the christmas action, Mon 9 Feb 2009, 22:33, Reply)