PhobiasWhat gives you the heebie-jeebies?
It's a bit strong to call this a phobia, but for me it's the thought of biting into a dry flannel. I've no idea why I'd ever want to or even get the opportunity to do so, seeing as I don't own one, but it makes my teeth hurt to think about it. *ewww*
Tell us what innocent things make you go pale, wobbly and send shivers down your spine.
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chthonic, Thu 10 Apr 2008, 13:34)
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I could vomit just writing this out.This is probably going to end up being long. And crappy. You have been warned.
I have an absolute phobia of people getting close to me and relationships. Seriously. I've lied for years, and stayed generally anti-social just to keep people at a distance. It's gone as far as I've only dated 5 guys in my entire life (I'm 25). And no relationship has lasted more than a couple of months. I just can't handle the pressure. It worries me too much. I think they're going to hurt me or do something awful to me. It's a real, wake up in the middle of the night screaming, terror.
Now this hasn't been helped by my bastard exes. The first guy I dated beat the shit out of me, and left me scarred. The second guy I dated just stopped talking to me after three months. The third guy I dated fucked with my head so badly my friends were genuinely worried and trying to get me away from him. It eventually ended luckilly. (I say ended, it sank like a Russian sub when one of the sailors nipped out for a nice refreshing walk) And so on and so forth.
Sadly, I'm having to deal with my fear in great measures. I've met a lovely guy, who does genuinely seem to care for me, and who is just wonderful. I'm scared shitless. Absolutely petrified. Seriously, my wrinkles will need polyfilla by the time I'm 30. I had the shakes for about an hour after our first date. Relationships with me are *fun*
So now I have the option of spending the forseeable future in a state of mild euphoria and simultaneous terror, or I live without him.
It's always nice when you find a fear that's bigger than your original phobia.
Sorry this isn't funny. But I don't really think I can manage funny and THE FEAR at the same time...
(, Thu 10 Apr 2008, 18:33, 2 replies)
Being seriousI think it's clear to see where this phobia comes from.
If this current guy really is as great as you seem to think, you should tell him exactly what the problem is and you can work through it together.
We're not all bastards
Best of luck. I hope it works out for you.
(, Fri 11 Apr 2008, 20:54, closed)
The above poster...Cheers dude. I am aware that you're not all bastards. I just have a talent for finding them.
(, Sat 12 Apr 2008, 15:21, closed)
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