November 25 of last year
...I had my second bone marrow transplant due to a tenacious strain of lymphoma. Being that my immune system was non-existent at the time I also contracted H1N1, sinusitis, a blood infection, pneumonia and a fungal infection in the catheter that ran from outside of my chest into my heart. Apart from the obligatory host-vs-graft disease, which, in essence , could kill me outright, I was in what you would call an awful state.
I couldn't breath on my own, the inside of my mouth, trachea and esophagus were filled with festering blisters, I hadn't eaten anything in over a week and was on a constant morphine drip for over a month due to the pain.
I remember sitting in bed one night ( as I wasn't able to lay down as I would suffocate - kinda like the elephant man), hadn't slept in days and the clock was telling me it was 3:00. A.M or P.M, i had no idea, but i remember feeling so weary and thinking to myself that perhaps the jig was up and I should lie down for the most blissful sleep and never wake up from it. To sleep, to dream, to be at peace.
I obviously never chose that route; I couldn't do that to my family, i knew in my heart this was not my "time", but by god (euphemism) I, at that moment, had never wanted anything as much in my life than to lay down and go to sleep, most likely forever.
Glad I didn't. My brother had a beautiful baby girl last Sunday, my sister is expecting in November, and although my balls are officially fried it certainly doesn't hurt to try!
My absolute power was the life or death of myself. I sometimes wish ( albeit wistfully) that many others in positions of "power" could have the same experience. Perhaps the world would be a very different place. Then again, perhaps not.
Apologies for lack of funnies, but I felt compelled.


Length = longer every day!

Edit - I did have the foresight to freeze my man gravy, so if you happen to see a handsome man waving a turkey baster around don't be frightened - it's what they told me to do.
(goorf, Sat 10 Jul 2010, 4:34, 5 replies)

Blimey
I'll save my in-growing toenail story for another day.
( Ring Of Fire A petty, drooling belming butthurt retard., Sat 10 Jul 2010, 4:52, closed)

Blimey and i'm moaning 'cos i lost my job
Glad you're okay :)
(mr-lizard Hell's teeth man!, Sat 10 Jul 2010, 15:47, closed)

all is well
and I didn't mean to come accross all firey and reeking of brimstone =) like i said, just felt compelled
(goorf, Sat 10 Jul 2010, 22:04, closed)

If this doesn't win, I think it deserves at least a mention in the Newsletter
*click*
( Agnostic Antichrist Baltimora, Mon 12 Jul 2010, 12:05, closed)

Wow
Glad you made it. *clickety*
( Cloudane, Mon 12 Jul 2010, 13:23, closed)