Ever fallen in love.
Friend was recovering from a breakdown and was doing really well so after seeing if another of our friends who would know when to tell me to shut up was willing to come I arranged a weekend camping not too far away. I got a bit of ribbing about going away with two young ladies and while enjoyed their company and entertained evil thoughts about what I would like to do with one of them we were just friends.
Waiting for dinner in the pub my phone rang. My father informing me that my nan had died. Thanks. Over the weekend my feelings for the hot one grew although mixed up with the bereavement. Didn't do anything but the following Mon at work where I couldn't settle to anything and was wondering what to do. I got a text. It was from a colleague who knew I was going away and can read me frighteningly well "What happened between you and X?" We had a text chat and in the end it was I either do nothing and wonder what might have been or go for it. For once in my life I went for it and wrote her a letter which I would probably cringe at if I saw it now. She rang, I tried to explain how I felt and got a very cold "Well you'll just have to live with it." For 3 years even when we were with mutual friends she would barely speak to me and to be on the cold side of someone so who was so warm was horrible. We talk again now but that was down to a bereavement which she was there for me every step of the way. She's been married and is now divorced and now I am wondering again if I stand a chance. I haven't got anywhere in the interim apart from self destructing over a married friend.

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(jvz, Sun 31 Jan 2010, 10:17, Reply)