UnemployedI was Mordred writes, "I've been out of work for a while now... however, every cloud must have a silver lining. Tell us your stories of the upside to unemployment."
You can tell us about the unexpected downsides too if you want.
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chthonic, Fri 3 Apr 2009, 10:02)
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kinda off topic, but kinda notlet me introduce you to a personal fantasy/goal of mine
it's a bright, sunny morning, as i arrive at work. a few small clouds and a light breeze. it's 7:00 am. i enter the building. i sit down at my terminal. the smell of cut grass wafts in through the window, distracting me momentarily. i begin the lengthy process of logging in and setting up all my systems. my manager breezes in late and grumpy. he demands to know why i haven't filled in my time management form for last week. i tell him 'because EVERY DAY is the same. please use my last entry. he starts to get angry. out of the window i can see my bike, and the sun shining on the lake.
i stand up
take a moment to compose myself.
i'm sorry' i say 'but this is where i get off'
i walk to the door. 'WHERE DO YOU THINK YOU'RE GOING?'
'nowhere' i reply
'nowhere, and somewhere, maybe everywhere. but NOT here.'
the door opens and the smell of cut grass hits me again
i step outside, blinking in the sunlight.
turning, i casually toss my entry pass to the still open-mouthed manager
'i won't be needing this any more, you can keep it.'
i climb on my bike, and pedal away, as i do so sloughing an indescribable weight, and i'm gone, wind in my face, worries under the rug for now, feeling like i'm made of nothing but air.
because sometimes, the trick isn't to always strive for the promise the light at the end of the tunnel. it's to admit to yourself that you're fumbling along in the dark and the further you stumble through the blackness, the longer it's going to take you to get back outside and feel the cool air on your skin and the hot sun on your face again.
and that sometimes, it's ok to be wrong.
(, Fri 3 Apr 2009, 17:23, 5 replies)
thanksthat's how i'd LIKE things to go.
the simple fact is, i'm a graphic designer, not a bloody network tech. this job, and the crazy hours, are making me into someone i don't like, so without further ado, i am handing in my notice, dropping a £30k job to go and fix bicycles for a living on minimum wage for a few months while i get my sleeping patterns back to normal and finish working on my design portfolio and apply for some jobs.
it's been a long time coming.
money is NOT happiness and anyone confusing the two is deluded.
(, Fri 3 Apr 2009, 17:49, closed)
i won't enjoy the £5.76 an houri WILL however, enjoy sleepingb at night and being awake in the day, maybe having weekend soff, riding my bike, fixing the other bikes, working with my good buddies, and not hating the person i see in the mirror every morning.
(, Fri 3 Apr 2009, 18:06, closed)
Good for youI'm ready to bail too but don't have a f'in idea what I'd want to do. I could even do without the money for a while. I'm basically coming in to work just because it's easier than thinking about the alternative.
(, Fri 3 Apr 2009, 19:18, closed)
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