I sometimes think
that I'm going to wind up 70 years old, frail and not far from grimmers himself and look back on my life full of regret. What annoys me is that while I'm young now, I think I've always got plenty of time to do the things that are on the so called bucket list. But one day, before I know it it'll be too late.

I wonder what thing that I'm not going to do is the thing I most regret.

Currently the most regretful thing is either a) Not getting violent with a former cuntish employer, jumped up little shit of a man who looks and even acts like Gordon Gecko or b) Not screaming down the phone at him something along the lines of "Fuck off and die you cunt, I quit". But I guess that ain't so bad seeing as the negative effect on my career may have put me back a few years further. Looking to the future, thing's that I have reserved that I really need to do....

Learn French. Live in France for over a year. My other half has a proper French mother and I think it would be endearing to that side of the family if I made the effort. If we have a son that's any good at football he will play for France and not for the disgrace that is Scotland.

Become really successful at something I enjoy. Currently I work in Marketing, Business Development, Sales, that kind of horse shit that I regret ever getting into. I was on the phone to the clearing agency after dropping out of Computing Studies after 1 year at Uni and just off the cuff I went for BSc in Marketing. I even got a desmond tutu to confirm my lethargic disinterest.

My passion is football and music and one way of getting someway involved is through journalism. I like writing, although not the best with grammar I can surely improve. So to become a journo would be ideal, especially one that pays well. My interest in football takes me to splendid arenas, such as Celtic Park, Hampden, Old Trafford, Wembley. There's something about stadiums - designed with the specific interest of everybody getting a grand view and also generating as much atmosphere, excitement and NOISE as possible. I would love to become a football journalist.

I've become rather adept at the bass guitar and have even fronted and performed original songs in front of an audience. I really enjoyed that and it's something I need to stop leaving as an after-thought. I'd like to get a band together and give it a proper shot, although I am already resigned to failing as a genuine rock and roll act, I still think I have a number of gigs left in me.

I would like to have children and call me old fashioned but I'd like them to exceed my achievements, whatever they may be. Not in the "live the life you wanted through your child" way, but to truly help and guide them into areas they want to go. Basically the opposite of what my parents done for me.

In terms of material possessions I will one day own a Musicman Stingray 4 (very expensive, very nice Bass guitar) and an underground studio full of expensive electronic this and that. My friends can come round and we'll jam into the wee hours drinking cheap booze and having a lark.

It's happiness we're all after really, therefore to answer the question, my greatest ambition is to be the guy on his deathbed with zero regrets. Unless I get pummeled unexpectedly into oblivion by a gigantic cock, in which case I won't have time to think retrospectively about my achievements and I won't hear the length apology from the rapist once my last gasp expires.
( whenanimalsattackhumans clad in global hypercolour, Sun 17 Oct 2010, 23:40, 2 replies)

I will genuinely apologise about the line-breaks
it didn't come up like that when in post mode, honest!
( whenanimalsattackhumans clad in global hypercolour, Sun 17 Oct 2010, 23:41, closed)

I have checked off a lot of the music ones you mentioned...
Despite this it never goes away, wanting to do more with it. Performing is a drug and it's one that I'm now on the equivalent of methodone for...

Teaching is not the same...
( Sonic James Doom forgetting the date since... umm..., Sun 17 Oct 2010, 23:44, closed)