Well firstly, I'd find out for definite whether he is ill or not.
"he may be seriously ill"?

Secondly, if he is ill, stop acting like a silly cunt and talk to him.
Don't you think he's going to be a tad upset too about possibly dying?

Fucking hell, you are shit. MAN UP and get on with it.
If he is dying, he won't want to be spending his last days/months with you being a tearful moping little runt.
Do something that will enjoy, and you will be able to remember him by when (if indeed he is ill) he is gone.
( mns 2️⃣2️⃣9️⃣0️⃣7️⃣, Fri 8 May 2009, 19:31, archived)