I'm trying to improve my life here, not make it worse.
(, Fri 29 May 2009, 20:24, archived)
And you can learn valuable things from even the crappiest jobs, even if it's nothing more than "don't accept any kind of job with TK Maxx, no matter how good the pay".
That said, this kind of practically-minded attitude makes me even less attractive to graduate-employers than anything else. If I'd crawled back to my mother with my tail between my legs and spent the last 9 months moping about my room smoking pot, whining about how there were no "proper" jobs available, they'd probably be falling over themselves to hire me now.
(, Fri 29 May 2009, 20:34, archived)
my life is already reasonably comfortable as it is, to be honest. It just drives me nuts that I never get to do anything or meet anyone. I'm not going to spend my time and money qualifying for something I don't actually want to pursue as a career. I did that once already and it didn't turn out well.
(, Fri 29 May 2009, 20:40, archived)
All I need to do is find something I'd actually like to do, and some way into it, because I find it near impossible even to apply for a job I don't really want, whether I'm qualified for it or not. And I absolutely cannot fake enthusiasm, so even if I got as far as an interview I'd be completely screwed.
(, Fri 29 May 2009, 20:55, archived)
and what my parents thought would be a good idea, because on an entirely practical level, where only potential earnings count for anything, that seemed to make sense. Sure, I could have carried on, and got the grades, and ended up professor in physics at Cambridge or something. It's not because I wasn't intellectually capable. But I'm not a robot and I simply do not want to live like that.
(, Fri 29 May 2009, 21:00, archived)