ooh....just a few
Heroin
Benzos
Ketamine
Amphetamine
Cocaine
Cannabis
Alcohol
MDMA
Acid
Magic Mushrooms
Sex
Spending money

13 years of using daily.

How low have I sunk?

Financially bankrupt.
Crim record for dealing, crim damage and violence. Crown and Magistrates Court,
Getting parental home raided,
Sucked cock for drugs,
Slept with skanky men for a bed for the night and drugs,
Lost numerous jobs,
Lost numerous friends,
Severly pissed off family,
Stomach ulcer,
Burst vessels in my nose,
Scars from self harm and smashing various objects over other peoples heads,
Chunks of teeth missing,
Heart strain,
Eating disorder,
10 years (and counting) prescription of anti-depressents...
...am sure there is more...may need a later post...memories abit fucked these days...

I am an addict. I will always be an addict. Being an addict isn't just a reliance on substances its a spiritual deficiency that relies on outside things to make you feel good when there really is a massive void inside that needs to be worked on. Putting substances down doesn't make it go away. It manifests itself other stuff and behaviours can define it.

I know all this because.......4 years of therapy, 6 months and one week of intensive rehab. Continuing ongoing daily recovery work...its something that is always there.

No booze for me this christmas.

Im coming up 18 months abstinent.
Im coming up to 30 years old.
(Oops....did I say that out loud cos I really bloody want to., Wed 24 Dec 2008, 20:31, 7 replies)

Merry Christmas
keep it up :)
( Reid got it going on like Donkey Kong, Wed 24 Dec 2008, 23:03, closed)

I wish I was cool like you.
And did loads of drugs and that.
( JessAction Give me all your expensive brandy and hubcaps., Wed 24 Dec 2008, 23:08, closed)

wow you have had loads of drugs
quick tell everyone you have done loads of drugs
( moohalaa, Wed 24 Dec 2008, 23:21, closed)

oooooooh
Taking my inventory eh.

Clever.

I was just answering the question.
(Oops....did I say that out loud cos I really bloody want to., Thu 25 Dec 2008, 0:13, closed)

Good luck
May good things happen to you in 09 and keep on staying clean and dry.

Best wishes
( Rev. Jayneflakes Buy my book, I need the cash for drugs and hookers, Thu 25 Dec 2008, 0:55, closed)

Is everyone here on drugs (prescription or otherwise)?

( idonthaveafunnynickname Drink-Aware? Sure. I'm aware I want another drink., Thu 25 Dec 2008, 12:01, closed)

Merry Christmas
I think your description of addiction sums it up perfectly. Well done for getting this far, if you've gone that far down not so many get out of it. Knowing you'll never be 'cured' is half the battle I think so you don't get fooled into thinking 'one won't hurt'.

Have a good Christmas and ignore the idiots on here above...
(Clarabelle is reverting to type on, Thu 25 Dec 2008, 12:50, closed)