I know exactly where you are coming from, as I am right there with you.
The difference is, I have had CBT. My doctor wouldn't prescribe me with antidepressants as apparently "they have been getting in trouble for prescribing prozac without tackling the underlying problem". Did they attempt to try and tackle the underlying problem? No. Did the CBT help? No. The... therapist, psychiatrist, whatever, basically gave up on me because I was so depressed I couldn't do most of the 'tasks' on the CBT papers. How can they expect you to go into town and sit in a shop if you have to psych yourself up for 2 days just to go out of the house and converse with a single person?

So, here I am. 25, single, no friends, no help, never had a meaningful experience in my life. I am in such a deep rut, I doubt I'll ever be able to get out of it. I have given up on doctors, and seeing as most of the doors have been shut in my face, I am now vegetating in my house, surviving on ICB until they decide I don't deserve that any more (they did that last year, and forced me to go to a tribunal, where they said I was obviously deserving of it after I had a major panic attack in front of them. It took me about a month before I could even face leaving the house after that). I have no idea what will happen when they take my benefits away. I don't know how much further my depression can sink before I try and take my own life. I suppose that's one was for Mr. Cameron to stop people being on benefits...
( OneSullenBrit *air sandwiches*, Wed 16 Jun 2010, 0:29, 1 reply)

i'll
be your mate. we mentalists need to stick together, always said it and this particular thread has hit it home. nutters unite!
(hypnoticme is an anarcho-syndicalist commune, Wed 16 Jun 2010, 17:50, closed)

YAY
We need a name. b3taheads?
(mmmm curry doesn't really understand this sig lark, Wed 16 Jun 2010, 19:44, closed)