from before the grave
i hadnt spoken my dad for around 12-13 years but one night at 7:45, just as England kicked of in European cup match, the phone rang and it was my dad.i didn't recognize his voice, and as usual said some thing throw away and made a point of saying hurry up cos england are kicking off in a min. stunned silence for a moment, then he replied, "its me your dad i can call back later if you want". another moment of silence and then we started talking, not proper talking, but more a sort of awkward talking. after a couple of mins of this i asked him how he was and his words still linger in my head .
"as well as can be expected, considering the circumstances ". now i don't know why he said that at the time or why it stayed in my head but almost a year after that call he died from a massive heart attack. he never called back or answered any calls i made to him. i think maybe he knew there was some thing very seriously wrong with him, and he wanted to say some thing but couldn't, might have been the way i answered the phone or he might have bottled it at the last moment . we will never know .
but i am glad i managed to get a few words with him and wish that we hadn't separated on bad terms over some thing that was realy silly and not important, but pride and stubbornness run deep and carve many a scar in our family
( fluffybunnykiller Is feasting on the clitoris of life, Wed 13 Apr 2011, 21:18, Reply)