Chris Benoit

I wanted to be a professional wrestler since I was a little kid, I collected the cards, did the moves in the playground, and longed for it. I tried out for various holiday camp wrestling schools all with failure. The worst night of my life was when I realised I had neither the technical ability or the charisma to be a professional wrestler. I decided, with tears in my eyes, to go back to university. I read english Literature, but have always kept an enthusiastic eye on wrestling seeing parallells with it and with both greek morality plays and with victorian melodrama, but i digress.

Since my personal failure I've lived vicariously through Chris Benoit. He always seemed like a quiet guy, not a HHH or Rock. He didn't have the style or the outgoingness for being champion, he was quite a tiny guy and didn't have the natural agility or strengths that other wrestlers had. he just wrestled and worked hard. REALLY HARD. through sheer effort of personality he became one of the greatest wrestlers of his generation by the age of 40. Just 40. Imagine it, to be the top of your game at the relatively (these days) young age of 40. He was so respected, because of his talent and his work ethic at such an age.

And then....

To be honest, I still can't bring the two images in my head together. The talented professional with killer smile, the guy who would back up and help the younger members of the wrestling proffession like MVP, giving them the wherewithal to stand on their own two feet in the ring. to figt with pride and honour. and the killer of his wife and child.

it shouldn't of happened like this. not for Chris. Not for Nancy. Oh God, Not for Daniel.

What happened happened. Be it the 'roids, the stress or just the rage of a man frustrated, but still. I lost a hero, a Role Model and a father figure. I lost my faith in a man. A man whose life had been good until a point.

my life had been hopeful till that point.
(hot white cum, YEAH! i will show you 0wnage in a handful of posts, Mon 30 Jun 2008, 1:26, 4 replies)

You know why he did what he did?
I happened to read about this yesterday. His patented move, the "suicde headbutt", damaged his brain to an enormous degree. They did an autopsy and found massive calcium deposits in his brain, on a scale that was pretty much unprecedented. The doctor who examined him post-mortem said that the damage exceeded that of even the most tragic of Alzheimer's patients. He'd never seen brain damage like it.

So, while he very much wrote his own cheque, it wasn't really his fault either. His brain was in a state of serious fuckery when he did what he did.
(The Ghost of Stephen Foster, Mon 30 Jun 2008, 4:13, closed)

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You do know wrestlings fake?
(Freddles, Mon 30 Jun 2008, 5:45, closed)

WTF?
Only in America.
(oneinthepink is at your cervix m'lady, Mon 30 Jun 2008, 10:32, closed)

Benoit was a God
Unfortunate how it ended - better to remember why he was great.
(bazmorningstar efil4nat3b, Mon 30 Jun 2008, 12:38, closed)