I suppose I should continue the story...
One of the first posts I made in here, one which surprisingly (to me) ended up on the Best Of page, was a rather painful story of being sexually assaulted and hurt. Some here expressed surprise that I was willing to have sex after that. So now I'll give thanks to those who helped heal me.

Dana- sweet little thing that she was, she could tell from the first time she met me that there was something odd about me. She tells me that I was nice, polite and sweet, but skittish- when she put her hand on my arm I jumped as though stung. But she was kind and patient, and after a time took the lead and kissed me. It was a good beginning. We ended up being good friends for a time, but nothing more. Still, she was very sweet to me.

Kathleen- taller, curly brown hair and blue eyes. She too was patient about me being so jumpy, and eventually we ended back at hers. The first time, the sex was a bit awkward as I flinched when she would touch my arse or reach for my belt to undo it, but after a few times I was able to relax and enjoy it. Too bad her goals and mine were different- I was not the fatherly type. But still, she broke the ice for me and allowed me to get back in the saddle, so to speak.

Monica- sweet, uninhibited, a bit wild and kinky. She too helped to bring me out of my shell a bit. Long dark hair that she loved for me to pull (gently) during sex. She also loved going down, and got me comfortable with that as well. Again, our lives were sadly going in different directions, but for a few weeks it was wonderful.

And finally, Jan. It was she who finally got me to open my heart a bit, to speak of what had been done to me. She held me as I cried, really wept, for the first time in a year. She took care of me when I was at her little cottage in the country, and I did the same for her in my flat- but mostly I was in her place. I've written about her before as well. It ended very sadly, but we had a good run together. I still sometimes wonder what would have happened if we had stayed together... but in any case, I was much closer to being whole again thanks to her.

I know that none of them read this site- or at least if they do, they have not contacted me. But even so, I'd like to express my eternal gratitude to them all for healing me as gently as they did. I know that I was more than a little challenging, but each of these wonderful women did their best with me.

Thank you...
(Shimrod, Fri 3 Oct 2008, 19:14, 6 replies)

Well done
That is all

/sniff
( BadBadman saw an incorrect comma placement on, Fri 3 Oct 2008, 19:28, closed)

Wow
This Qoute Of the Week is lovely.... And well done :)
(Fredz A graveyard of hopes, a dump of ambition, Fri 3 Oct 2008, 19:43, closed)

Thank you.
It's actually rather cathartic to write about this. It was a time that I really don't like to remember, but at the same time it's part of my history. And I do owe quite a debt to these women in particular. There have been others, but these four were especially kind.
(Shimrod, Fri 3 Oct 2008, 20:03, closed)

I can imagine......
Brave of you to deal with it so frankly and say all this too. Must have taken courage and such. I guess the only way you can deal with such a monumentus thing is to face it and not let it beat you and from the sounds of it you're doing pretty well in that regard.
(Fredz A graveyard of hopes, a dump of ambition, Fri 3 Oct 2008, 21:43, closed)

It's good that you didn't give up on sex.
It's far too much fun : )
( girlinthehole, Fri 3 Oct 2008, 19:57, closed)

Sharing all of that
is an amazing thing to do

*hugs and clicks*
( warmfuzzies Isn't here, Sat 4 Oct 2008, 2:00, closed)