I've not been consistently truly bad, but the worst thing I've done is dreadful, horrendous and waaaaay too long to recount on here
It's basically 3 years of mental and 2 years of attempted atonement that made shit worse.

I'm a firm believer of "I want the person I like to be happy"- it's often evident that they're not going to be happy with me, so I try to encourage them (if I'm still friendly) to make themselves happy. This sounds very emo and self-indulgent, but hey. I do my best to be a nice person and after the dreadful thing mentioned before I think I've got a lot to make up.
( Lampito rise with the moon, go to bed with the sun, Tue 18 Jan 2011, 23:14, 2 replies, latest was 15 years ago)

This is a fair mantra for life.
If nothing else, you get the moral high-ground and get to keep your self-respect in tact.
( JeffTheDogFucker Can you dig it?, Tue 18 Jan 2011, 23:20, Reply)

I then balance shit out by doing stupid things and destroying my self-respect
or telling people how I really feel about them.
( Lampito rise with the moon, go to bed with the sun, Tue 18 Jan 2011, 23:22, Reply)

Do you tell them both good and bad, or just good?

( JeffTheDogFucker Can you dig it?, Tue 18 Jan 2011, 23:24, Reply)

Well it's generally bad as it was "I still love you" and then he shouted at me and I told him that I cried every time he left me and I wouldn't cry this time
and I didn't for 3 days and then I got drunk and I cried for about 2 hours on a street in Soho.
( Lampito rise with the moon, go to bed with the sun, Tue 18 Jan 2011, 23:28, Reply)

Poor you.
And this is when you've let someone go so they'll make themself happy?
( JeffTheDogFucker Can you dig it?, Tue 18 Jan 2011, 23:33, Reply)

I never let go of that one.

( Lampito rise with the moon, go to bed with the sun, Tue 18 Jan 2011, 23:47, Reply)

Not at all
I think anyone who cares about anyone else would want them to be happy. I do think you take it too far though sometimes, in that you let other people use you to make them happy whilst making yourself sad.
(berk, Tue 18 Jan 2011, 23:22, Reply)

I'm generally a maudlin person.
I never cried as a baby, I think I've more than made up for it now. Though I did have a period of six months when no matter what I did I didn't cry. That broke spectacularly at my grandmother's house, and I had to hide at the bottom of the garden behind the washing where no one could see or hear me.
( Lampito rise with the moon, go to bed with the sun, Tue 18 Jan 2011, 23:26, Reply)