Dok
My biggest problem right now is working out what I want to do. It's a blessing and a curse that I'm able to find pretty much anything that's in some way intellectually stimulating interesting.

This morning on the way to work I was pondering what it'd be like to be involved in the scientific study of painting. That is to say decorative painting with one colour and big brushes and rollers. Not artistic painting! That'd be silly! Hopefully the counselling and CBT I'm going to be starting soon will help me focus my energies better and actually stick to something long enough to achieve my potential at it.

Another thing I'd like to do when I'm older (and have hopefully achieved something worthwhile in the field I finally choose to enter) is write a book about my experiences of being bi polar, dealing with the only persistent goal I have - achieving "great things" and how I've gone about life in the hope of providing the sort of inspiration I've taken from Kay Redfield Jamison's An unquiet mind.

Dammit I'm rambling again!
( Captain V, Wed 26 Nov 2008, 10:28, Reply)