Yeah actually
reading all that back has done me some good.

I'm allowed to feel like shit. I shouldn't beat myself up for it. I'm not just depressed, my life is actually shit. And it's no wonder I feel abandoned, no matter how much I understand that he is not actually deserting me, he is moving abroad while I am struggling to survive here. My feelings are understandable. I'm not a bitch for having them.

My life's still shit, but at least now I'm not beating myself up for thinking so. That helps.

*rises to surface, takes deep breath*

Thanks for listening... Time for sleep.
( warmfuzzies Isn't here, Tue 10 Feb 2009, 0:29, Reply)