NYE 1999 I was at a family party with my bonkers ex
pretending to be happy and hopeful for the future, but secretly hoping for the guts to leave. 1) because she was an abusive mentalist and 2) because I had realised I wasn't actually a lesbanian.
We woke up and went for a lovely walk by the river and I have the photo she took of me there. Silly little Roota.
I was at university and had no idea where I was going.
(I didn't grow a spine and leave. I took more crap and then got left by her years later.)

I started 2010 exactly how I wanted. A cursory nod to neighbourly festivity, then totally on my todd, eating, drinking, and being content. Knowing for a fact I've come a long way, because I now have the guts to walk away from someone when I know it's not right. I still haven't found my 'calling' but I have a good job, a second job which is fun, a roof over my head, a lovely family, experience, funtimes, great friends, courage, and a cat. I am no longer the girl who doesn't get asked out, and nobody ever bullies me anymore,

I still don't get treated like the jewel I am, but that's all to come in the Tens ;)

In ten tear's time? Just to be happy and not to have regrets or guilt. I'll try to have a bit of a say in things, but I'm also happy to see what life has in store for me.

LA VIE EN ROSE IS ON BBC4

EDIT: Cheers Becky, that really got me thinking :)
( Roota zweeeeeoooooowm, Sun 3 Jan 2010, 21:24, 1 reply, 16 years ago)

Hey I'll bully you if you feel left out?

( fuck shit up the best you never had, Sun 3 Jan 2010, 21:26, Reply)

Yeah cheers!
My preferred method of bullying is verbal abuse, hair-pulling, and fountain pen ink on my new clothes.

:)
( Roota zweeeeeoooooowm, Sun 3 Jan 2010, 21:30, Reply)

I'm sure I can rustle up some dogshit to smear on you while you sleep

( fuck shit up the best you never had, Sun 3 Jan 2010, 21:35, Reply)

You could get a fuckload of it in your line of work!!
Cat shit is less smeary, thx.
( Roota zweeeeeoooooowm, Sun 3 Jan 2010, 21:42, Reply)

I dunno about that, depends on the illness...

( fuck shit up the best you never had, Sun 3 Jan 2010, 21:47, Reply)

Oh.
Shit.
( Roota zweeeeeoooooowm, Sun 3 Jan 2010, 21:50, Reply)