The waking up is harder when you want to die.
Not very happy.

A few people have mentioned Eels. They have a brilliant album called Electro-Shock Blues, which is basically Mr E (the brains behind Eels) trying to come to terms with the suicide of his sister, his mother dying from lung cancer, and the death of his father when he was younger, and him realising he's all alone in the world. It's hauntingly beautiful in places, uplifting in others and soul crushingly depressing for the majority of its running time.

The opening track, Elizabeth on the Bathroom Floor, has lyrics taken from his sister's diary, documenting her first suicide attempt. It was this song I had playing when I hit my downer last term, sitting in my shower with a kitchen knife.
I didn't choose it because the lyrics described what I was doing, I didn't do what I did because the song described it. I'd done a similar thing before- it was just odd that I found a song that described a similar - but much worse - situation.

Those days, I hope, are behind me. But the song still gives me goosebumps.
( Lampito rise with the moon, go to bed with the sun, Tue 2 Feb 2010, 15:26, 3 replies)

It's a Motherfucker.
Floors me everytime; before you hear it the title sounds like it's going to be hard edged and angry, and then......

Bliss.
(DoomDalek Purple is a fruit!, Tue 2 Feb 2010, 18:13, closed)

agreed
that song is enough to bring tears to the eyes of even the hardest cynic.
(manwiddicombe is thinking of something witty to add here, Tue 2 Feb 2010, 22:57, closed)

I like Eels
But electro-shock blues was one of those albums I listened once, and couldn't listen to again. Pushed too many buttons and not necessarily in a good way
(Sir Tainley Barking Ezekiel 23:20, Tue 2 Feb 2010, 21:50, closed)