Good for you
for getting out of it.

I worked in a place that I was questioning 3 days after starting. Like you, it took 3 weeks before the complaints came in (unbeknownst to me at the time, it had happened to every single person in my role before me!).3 months later I was crying all over the boss and trying to resign, but carried on. fifteen months later I finally resigned, without a job to go to. Totally demoralised, questioning my reasoning for training in that career, questioning the whole system, feeling I'd failed, that I'd never amount to nothing, that my life was over. Health was a mess, crying all the time, appetite fucked, mood swings. Couldn't see the point in anything, didn't see the good in life, or people.
Figured out afterwards that I'd burnt out, and all because of some cunts in management - the rot that had risen to the top and that no-one in the whole system dared challenge, but which polluted the whole work environment from themselves down and created a continuous cycle of poor staff retention. Because they were control freaks who couldn't deal with change or see past their own stress.

So good on you, for not getting that far down the line. You have not failed. Far from it. You've taken whatever control you can, and there's no need to put up with that shit, or try and make it right, as some people are cunts and you won't change someone that doesn't want to stop being a cunt.

Jesus that was cathartic! Thanks!

Its been 18 months since I got out and I can honestly say it was the best thing I could have done. At the time I was going to challenge them, keep notes and take it to a tribunal . . . really not worth the stress and hassle (for me)

You sound pretty sorted otherwise, even with your depression/confidence issues. Hang in there, try not to beat yourself up on this one, be good to yourself.
(maggotriddendirtbox fast, feral and sharp as a tack since, Sat 4 Apr 2009, 6:45, Reply)