I don't know,
it just seems to be something missing.
( Moon Girl Technologies horrendous beanbag, Mon 8 Jun 2009, 23:31, archived)

Something may feel missing, but if you don't know what it is,
it's more likely that something that's already there is wrong.
(King Baby Duck more than a ceiling, Mon 8 Jun 2009, 23:33, archived)

I mean,
desire, it's something everybody else seems to have, and I don't. The problem, as far as I can identify it, is that there's very little in my life at all, other than a basic level of comfort. It seems like desire is what makes other people get more stuff into their lives. Or maybe it isn't. Maybe that's just a red herring.
( Moon Girl Technologies horrendous beanbag, Mon 8 Jun 2009, 23:37, archived)

Then you have no desire then,
you have everything you want?
You seem to be very lucky if that is what you mean.
(King Baby Duck more than a ceiling, Mon 8 Jun 2009, 23:39, archived)

I feel like I may as well fade into space and time.

( Moon Girl Technologies horrendous beanbag, Mon 8 Jun 2009, 23:41, archived)

Oh come on now, i'm being helpful for once.
Don't be a cunt.
(King Baby Duck more than a ceiling, Mon 8 Jun 2009, 23:42, archived)

I appreciate it, I really do.
But I'm afraid to say, that telling me I ought to be happy isn't making me so.
I have nothing to live for, no passion, no drive. All my life I've only followed the path of least resistance, and now, I'm just stagnating in a puddle, like so much leaked hydraulic fluid.
( Moon Girl Technologies horrendous beanbag, Mon 8 Jun 2009, 23:44, archived)

I'm not telling you to be happy.
I'm saying that's what I want, everyone's different and yeah most people do want 'happiness' but not the way I do(it's hard to explain)
I'm not telling you to do anything, this is something only you can work out for yourself, you just need to find something worth living(or even dying) for.
(King Baby Duck more than a ceiling, Mon 8 Jun 2009, 23:48, archived)

Yeah, that's the gist of it.
There's a strong psychological link between happiness and goal fulfilment, such that to want happiness for its own sake is almost a tautology. What does it stand on? It's like saying you want what you want. It's like ordinarily, there's some kind of pre-programmed want or goal in there.
( Moon Girl Technologies horrendous beanbag, Mon 8 Jun 2009, 23:51, archived)

My happiness is to continue what i'm doing already.
Doing fuck all with my mates :)
(King Baby Duck more than a ceiling, Mon 8 Jun 2009, 23:55, archived)