I'm a bit of a mentallist, generally, and it's been somewhat worse than normal lately.
It currently seems 'in' to have some kind of mental divergence, I think Stephen Fry started it by making Bi-Polar disorder sexy and interesting, however I generally prefer to keep mine to myself, but for the sakes of what I'm about to say making sense, lets just say I'm a bit special and rather excessively co-dependent at times, and as such I NEED to find folks who are the last vestiges of non-cynical selfless kindness as otherwise I would probably have been dead on the street of one country or another a long time ago, and I consider myself very lucky indeed to have found three.

Regarding this I would like to thank Shalroth for all the times he's reacted to my fun depressions and sleepless nights by bringing me Sushi and red wine and for never telling me to 'just buck up' even when I can tell he's secretly getting a bit tired of it, and Tony for all the times he's taken me to his home to keep me safe when I'm having some stupid paranoid convictions or panic attacks of some description, which he's actually currently doing now even though to my eternal shame he has much better things to worry about after his 75 y.o. Mum had a nasty fall, though I am trying to do my bit to help where I can there, and lastly to old Fred, who's a 75 y.o. mate of 15 years who's various kindnesses over the years are far too long and numerous to go into.

There are also others who help me/us out now and then and I hope they will forgive me for only detailing these three today.

Thanks guys, and I promise to always do my best to return the favours when I can, as my worst fear always is that I would ever lose you as friends by taking you all for granted.

I'm painfully aware I'm also somewhat publicly outing myself as a resident nutter BTW, I just hope folks don't think I'm yet another self created victim trying to make himself seem more interesting whilst simultaneously excusing himself from having to participate in the society they're milking with all their might, as I hate them too, all I can tell you is it seems real to me, I normally keep it to myself, I don't milk it financially, and I always feel I should apologise for it.

And I've just taken about two hours debating if I should even post this at all, but apparently I have.

Besides, I promised I'd hoover up today...

*edit* cheers guys, but one thing, I really did want this to be more about the wonderful chaps who help me out rather than me, I am and always will be forever in their debt and I just felt the need to say that. Thanks again you guys. XXX
( ..wil, Tue 7 Oct 2008, 13:13, 11 replies)

Don't worry about it.
You'd stand out more on here if you didn't have some sort of mental problem.

It's rife on Bta.
( girlinthehole, Tue 7 Oct 2008, 13:28, closed)

Shouldnt worry m8!
Shouldnt worry about "comin out" matey, im a nutter too. Really over the years i think most people have some upstairs issues but prefer not to talk about it. I prefer to say but i think its just cus people would think your mardy/antisocial/weird otherwise.
(I have Cyclothymia)
(morrigan456 made sex wee on, Tue 7 Oct 2008, 13:35, closed)

Awwww
You just made me cry again.
(theSHALROTH Gaga's tits are on fucking fire!!!, Tue 7 Oct 2008, 13:38, closed)

I understand
One of my pet peeves is people who confuse emotional health with mental health. Both are important and obviously there is a close relationship between the two... But if you suffer genuine mental illness or imbalance it is hard to be taken seriously when what the world sees more often are people who refer to themselves as bipolar or depressesd when in actual fact what they have are "moods".

Mental health affects everything, your whole life, every day. It is not sexy.

You have my empathy, and a click.
( warmfuzzies Isn't here, Tue 7 Oct 2008, 13:46, closed)

I can usually tell when someone is just a moody bugger and not a mentalist.
They don't have much of a sense of humour.


Mentalists do.
( girlinthehole, Tue 7 Oct 2008, 13:59, closed)

That
is absolutely spot on, actually!
( warmfuzzies Isn't here, Tue 7 Oct 2008, 14:13, closed)

spat tea at that
you have just summed up years of brain science stuff. Win!



And don't worry WIL, i don't reckon you'll lose yer mates. Not when you and them have what would seem to be the hearts of giants.
(DreddPirateBob has watched every scifi film ever on, Tue 7 Oct 2008, 19:22, closed)

My I join the nutter queue?
*outs self*
( riverghost servicing your mum since, Tue 7 Oct 2008, 13:50, closed)

And me
I was diagnosed bipolar about a year ago. I do think us nutters have a more interesting time though...
(Hagbard Celine, Tue 7 Oct 2008, 20:29, closed)

*big hugs*
to you and teh Shalroth.
( e.m.m.y. foxtrot uniform charlie kilo india tango, Tue 7 Oct 2008, 16:27, closed)

There's many a nutter here, indeed,
but I really like how you just described us as "sexy and interesting". At least, I'm reading it that way. So you've just done something nice for me. Nice one.
( crackhouseceilidhband Fuck off back to Mumsnet, Tue 7 Oct 2008, 17:28, closed)