Tends to mean I'm shifting into another cycle of poorly
And it's not even the kind I get where the benefits make it bearable. It's the kind I get where I get no benefits at all. :(
(BelladonnaAnodyne Melissa's gonna wet herself, I swear..., Fri 14 Jan 2011, 19:57, 1 reply, 15 years ago)

no way of preempting it and fixing it?
or just hibernating through it?
( Citizen Cavy Admires your passion for conformity, Fri 14 Jan 2011, 20:03, Reply)

I just need to MTFU and get through it
Make sure I make myself do things rather than just sitting and sulking, which will ultimately make everything much worse. If it carries on much longer I might have to go to the doctor though. I've missed three days off work in a row because I can't leave the house. Don't want to go to the doctor though, because a) I'm in denial a bit and b) I'm scared.
(BelladonnaAnodyne Melissa's gonna wet herself, I swear..., Fri 14 Jan 2011, 20:06, Reply)

He/She might be able to make it better though
which would be a good thing
( Amberl was stripey and dominated Europe, Fri 14 Jan 2011, 20:09, Reply)

I'm not sure they could
I've tried before and only got useless stuff, and I don't want pills.
(BelladonnaAnodyne Melissa's gonna wet herself, I swear..., Fri 14 Jan 2011, 20:10, Reply)

is it pain then?
doctors aren't great at managing that, worth seeing a specialist
( Amberl was stripey and dominated Europe, Fri 14 Jan 2011, 20:13, Reply)

No, it's not pain.
I'm off a three month 'high' period and into the slump. Which is rubbish, because when I'm in the 'high' part of the cycle, I don't have to eat or sleep, and I always have great adventures and end up with good stories to tell. When I'm in the low part, I just tend to avoid all human contact, eat too much and not sleep but *always* be exhausted.

I don't want meds though.
(BelladonnaAnodyne Melissa's gonna wet herself, I swear..., Fri 14 Jan 2011, 20:16, Reply)

might be worth it, though
even if they don't completely medicate for it. I know people with similar things and the lows are pretty devastating
( Citizen Cavy Admires your passion for conformity, Fri 14 Jan 2011, 20:20, Reply)

If you need the meds though
might just have to bite the bullet, or it's just going to get worse
( Amberl was stripey and dominated Europe, Fri 14 Jan 2011, 20:20, Reply)

Taking meds means getting a new diagnosis though
The last time things were this bad I just got therapy (didn't really work), but I'm an adult now, so even that won't be as forthcoming. I don't want to be someone who's bad enough to need pills.
(BelladonnaAnodyne Melissa's gonna wet herself, I swear..., Fri 14 Jan 2011, 20:22, Reply)

I think the problem can be if people are on pills
and identify with that too much and rely on them. Happened to my mum for a while, but they eventually got her off them and she's a bit better now.
( Citizen Cavy Admires your passion for conformity, Fri 14 Jan 2011, 20:26, Reply)

That's just it
I don't want to be a person on medication, because then I wouldn't know what I was like not on medication, and I'd have to come off them at some point.
(BelladonnaAnodyne Melissa's gonna wet herself, I swear..., Fri 14 Jan 2011, 20:27, Reply)

if you have a decent doctor
you might not be on them long, it's just time for some stabilising and therapy and stuff. Mind you, I don't want to claim I really know about this stuff - I realise I'm probably coming across as one of those know alls who don't really know all. Sorry about that
( Citizen Cavy Admires your passion for conformity, Fri 14 Jan 2011, 20:30, Reply)

Easiest way to reconcile that
is to realise that whoever you are at any given second is who you are, whether you're on pills or not

And that little cliche was only realised after a long time
( Amberl was stripey and dominated Europe, Fri 14 Jan 2011, 20:32, Reply)

I'll probably do something next week
I can't have any more time off work, I tried to pull 'generic ill' and they're convinced I've got swine flu. Plus, I hate lying.
(BelladonnaAnodyne Melissa's gonna wet herself, I swear..., Fri 14 Jan 2011, 20:49, Reply)

Go this weekend if you can
once it's sorted things will seem much better because it'll feel like you have a handle on it.
( Amberl was stripey and dominated Europe, Fri 14 Jan 2011, 20:51, Reply)

Nah, I won't be able to make an appointment until Monday
I'm going to MTFU and go to work tomorrow and Sunday.
(BelladonnaAnodyne Melissa's gonna wet herself, I swear..., Fri 14 Jan 2011, 20:57, Reply)

go gogogoogogoogo
i hate going to the doctors too, but just mtfu and go, before things get too bad
( Citizen Cavy Admires your passion for conformity, Fri 14 Jan 2011, 20:10, Reply)

But.... doctors make stuff *real*!

(BelladonnaAnodyne Melissa's gonna wet herself, I swear..., Fri 14 Jan 2011, 20:13, Reply)

i know what you mean
but they might just make things better
( Citizen Cavy Admires your passion for conformity, Fri 14 Jan 2011, 20:15, Reply)