If I can survive the shit I got in school for 'being myself'
then I may as well keep at it now.
( Roota zweeeeeoooooowm, Wed 2 Feb 2011, 13:30, 3 replies, latest was 15 years ago)

*sings like Ethel Merman*
I gotta be meeeeeeeeeeeee!
( girlinthehole, Wed 2 Feb 2011, 13:32, Reply)

Oh man I fucking love Ethel.
"SYLVESTERRRRRR, IT'S YOUR MOTHERRRR!"
( Roota zweeeeeoooooowm, Wed 2 Feb 2011, 13:34, Reply)

Bloody good for you
I was 15-16 before I stopped trying to be accepted, and I really fucking wish I'd tried that earlier instead of all the grief I got and the grief it caused me trying to fit in. Yet I rather suspect that if I were to go to my school reunion, say, I'd struggle to be 'me'. I'd probably just be very quiet for a while, hit the free bar than flick the whole lot of them the bird and leave.
(berk, Wed 2 Feb 2011, 13:33, Reply)

I've just been invited to mine!
20 years since I left school

/isold
( sporters I’m sincerely gratitude to you, Wed 2 Feb 2011, 13:33, Reply)

I missed the five year one
technically this year would be the 10 year one, but I went to a school with a sixth form and was one of only about 7 who left after GCSEs, so it won't be for another couple of years yet.
(berk, Wed 2 Feb 2011, 13:36, Reply)

I'm quite looking forward to it
I want to see if I've done any better than most of the reprobates I was there with!

We did have one footballer and one girl is on the TV so I think our year has done OK
( sporters I’m sincerely gratitude to you, Wed 2 Feb 2011, 13:38, Reply)

I'll go to mine if I get offered a PhD
and then I will sneer at them all and be like - 'yeah. Thats Doctor berk to you.' We had a lot of priveleged fuckwits in my year, quite a number didn't go to uni and just got fat and had kids instead, so I'll enjoy being snobbish.
(berk, Wed 2 Feb 2011, 13:41, Reply)

We also had one murdered
and one murderer (not related)
( sporters I’m sincerely gratitude to you, Wed 2 Feb 2011, 13:42, Reply)

I just had this mantra in my head "This won't last forever"
As much as I'm still quite childlike, and enjoyed my childhood in many ways, I knew I'd have to wait until adulthood to be totally free.
I'm nowhere near as scared of muggers and rapists as I was/am of packs of teenagers with an eye for a cowardy custard.
( Roota zweeeeeoooooowm, Wed 2 Feb 2011, 13:36, Reply)

Similar, I knew I'd leave at 16
and go to the local sixth form college. Still doesn't quite erase the memory of spending probably a good 3 months in 3rd year crying though. Even now those packs of screeching chavs outside shops give me the shivers considerably more than a sole dodgy looking bloke who might be following me/might have a knife or whatever.
(berk, Wed 2 Feb 2011, 13:39, Reply)

I stayed on at 6th form.
I liked my teachers and 'better the devil you know' was my thought.
I didn't even have to go to that school. my mum wanted me to sit an exam and go to a 'better' school, but even then I knew I was just the type of kid who other kids would want to kill. At that school I'd have been bullied for being the common kid from town. At the one I went to I was the one who was bright and spoke nice (I no longer speak nice.)
Meh.
( Roota zweeeeeoooooowm, Wed 2 Feb 2011, 13:43, Reply)

I don't know whether it was just the comparison to school
but sixth form college was probably the best two years of my life, thus far anyway. I honestly think I'd have harmed myself if I'd had to stay on for sixth form at school. And yeah, I was that type of kid as well. Still am, to some extent.
(berk, Wed 2 Feb 2011, 13:49, Reply)

And you're pretty fucking awesome, to be honest.
I don't think I've been myself recently, though. Dyeing my hair stupid colours isn't me. I blame not being able to fit into most of my clothes.
( Lampito rise with the moon, go to bed with the sun, Wed 2 Feb 2011, 13:37, Reply)

I can see why other kids weren't fussed on me,
I liked adults better, I liked Patsy Cline, I'd go up to kids and go "Hello, I'm Roota, do you want to play?" and generally get the "Oh fuck off you twee little dickhead" response. Or the "Yes we'll play with you and lock you in a cupboard, that'll get rid of your beans for you!" response.
And I do rabbit on...
( Roota zweeeeeoooooowm, Wed 2 Feb 2011, 13:40, Reply)

I had an awful time of Primary school and the first bit of secondary.
Theo straightened me out a bit for a while and then I went nuts over the last years of school in general. But I found that people seemed to like me more the older I get. I dunno whether they just started to appreciate me or I grew up, but I really didn't change that much.

I could never play with other kids, I'm shit at making new friends :/
( Lampito rise with the moon, go to bed with the sun, Wed 2 Feb 2011, 13:43, Reply)

Secondary school only really had the threat of violence
Whereas in primary school I got battered. I could have taken the verbals a lot better (names really don't hurt me) if I didn't think there might be a pasting at the end of them.
And as for getting older and finding people like you more, well there are loads of reasons. Your confidence, your broadening horizons/social group etc. You simply have more choice and so does everyone else. You suddenly meet more people whose 'cup of tea' you are.
( Roota zweeeeeoooooowm, Wed 2 Feb 2011, 13:48, Reply)