Ahh, that sounds pretty nasty.
I've had some experiance with depression, though to be honest more with witnessing other people suffering it. The advice I can realy offer goes as follows:
1) Try and get out of the house at least once a day if possible for something other than work - if you've got a dog, take it for a walk, or just go for a walk yourself. It's been said before but a bit of light exersise realy does wonders.
2) Make an appointment to see the doctor regarding getting some antidepressents and eventualy therapy ect. They do work, y'know, though it can take a while to find the right kind for you. If you're having trouble sticking to the appointment/making it tell a close friend who you can rely on to nag you untill you do it! Failing that, I could always gaz you every day to tell you to go make one!
3)Same with the ECG scheduling - make an appointment, try and make sure others know so they can remind you of the appointment. Such problems are much less stressful once you begin to get a grip on them. Making a start on these things is half the battle ect.
4)As for the job/helping your kid? Firstly, you might want to see a doctor before you deal with your job and classes. They've dealt with people at work suffering depression, and chances are they'll be able to give you much better advice on such things than I am. Also, with your kid? I'd advise at least starting to get this depression thing cracked before you start helping your kid with their work. I'm honestly not too sure about the american education system, but have you tried making an appointment with their form teacher to discuss their progress, or lack of and what might be contributing to it?

So yes, Um, it sounds like your biggest battle at the moment is getting everything started, and though that seems monumental and insurmountable, it is possible. Don't feel bad about getting help, or that you're not worth it - because you are. Just get started, tell some close friends if possible, and get them to nag you about it if you need further motivation! Um, I hope that things start looking up for you soon and all - and you know, gaz me if you just want to talk or something.
(Fredz A graveyard of hopes, a dump of ambition, Thu 11 Jun 2009, 8:01, 1 reply, 16 years ago)

You've triggered an observation
Not doing anything about all this is compounding your negativity and feeding your depression. It's a horrible, vicious circle.

Once you actually do something positive towards getting yourself fixed, you might just feel a little better about yourself.
( Noeli overtheshoulderboulderholderthingstraplatchboobs, Thu 11 Jun 2009, 8:10, Reply)

^THIS in spades
The first inch is the worst.

Actually, that might have been something to do with anal sex
( chart cat has an itch, Thu 11 Jun 2009, 8:13, Reply)

Pffft!

( Noeli overtheshoulderboulderholderthingstraplatchboobs, Thu 11 Jun 2009, 8:19, Reply)

Heh - true.
A lot of the time actualy making a start is the most difficult thing to do. That counts for work, getting help, writing essays and yes, anal sex.
(Fredz A graveyard of hopes, a dump of ambition, Thu 11 Jun 2009, 8:33, Reply)