the depression is understandable
and at least you remain eloquent about it.

it is understandably heart-wrenching. as you say you've never cared so much about something and then you get fucked about with no control over it. take solace in our colleague Bartleby's words below. He has the right of it.

It's shitty now, but as long as you can maintain whatever contact you can, it will be better in future.
( Vipros. clever got me this far, then tricky got me in, Thu 8 Jul 2010, 17:03, 1 reply, 16 years ago)

As a non doctor I can see Monty's problem
Monty, You love your child, probably the only thing you have loved properly in your life. And, the little critter loves you back, in a non judgemental way. Fuck, I envy you.
( Bartleby A dead man on vacation, Thu 8 Jul 2010, 17:14, Reply)

Thank you for your sage words.
I really appreciate everyone being so nice to me about this. Seriously, thank you all.
( Monty Boyce, My cheese game is strong, Thu 8 Jul 2010, 17:36, Reply)